love's a marathon.

new blog!

2007-05-31T08:06:00.001-11:00

hi there people, as you can see this blog is looooooooong dead.
I decided to enlighten those noobshits who still come here.
www.veryverylong.blogspot.com
ok, love you all veryvery much <3

XOXOXO jolene.

punched, dead.

2007-04-24T20:18:00.000-11:00

I PASSED HISTORY TEST amazingly. but,

today is a really D: day.

first, I got punched.

second, I slapped and kicked.

third, I got a baluku now.

fourth, it hurts.

fifth, he's slaps by me hurt too, I guess.

I'm angry, he's angry.

han-nah, I cried lah. dang it.

3 words: he started it.

>:'(

last of all, exams are coming. I'm scared.
I saw ben today, sadly he was busy with his friends to even bother look at me the second time. :/
I miss uploading photos.
I'll do that really soon.
I think my posts are really pathetic, so sorry.

new new new.

2007-04-24T00:05:00.000-11:00

this is my very first post after I blocked off my site, plus changed url :D
it was because, ___________ ( ask me in msn or something )
anyway, life's been pretty average for me I guess.
ok, so many things happened I forgot. D:
ohwell, there's nothing much to blog for now.
no mood, very sian.
exams are coming, I'm scared.
I hope that I won't get screwed. ):
so sorry, I promise to blog nicer/longer the next time.
for now, AH DI YOS people <3

school is a place.

2007-04-17T23:52:00.000-11:00

genesis is a shit ass molester.
he WHACKED my neh today.
waddahell, bullshit.
go screw yourself! D:<
short; genesis sucks, big time.
( brown, give him ugly colour! )

I had NAPFA today, I passed everything,
plus some really amazing high Bs man! :D
irocklah, irock.

today we had firedrill -.-
ohman, the sun was killing and chao-da-ing everyone.
it was scorching, my face went red D:
but then. we managed to skip history test man! :D
happiness.

I was complaining about genesis the dickhead,
alex said;
aiyuh, nothing lah. yours not that big, so won't affect much.
WTH, I'M NOT FLAT LUH.
IN FACT, MINE ARE SO DAMN BIG.
BIGGER THAN YOURS AT LEAST!
moron -.-

LobsteR LINUS is currently very busy and tired and probably drained nowadays.
awww, jiayou luh noob :D haha. ok, not noob.
jiayou my friend! :D
keep on keeping on, everything will be fine :D
yesterday he took veryveryvery long to reply my sms,
I thought something happened.
seriously :/
I thought that me cursing that he would bang into a tree really happened.
oops, I was worried. :/ oh-no.
but wahlau, he was ok lah :D
I knew it, he ain't that noob :D

plus, I love my art teacher.
seriously, she's a really nice teacher who never flares, plus.
she gave me a pencil cos' she said that I got 80 and above for art!
irock,ohyesirock. <3

I keep bumping into ilyas. ohmy, I think he's :D hahaha.
I go happy when I see him plus WAVE! :D
& hafiy too! lmao, that spastic face. O.O
HAHAHAHAHAHA, ohmy. what cute friends I have.
irockmah.

ok, I have nothing much to say except that I'm
tired,
sleepy,
hating chinese plus the teacher,
stressed when I think of the homework waiting for me,
& exams that are nearing.. still I haven't started revision.
urgh, sounds so stressful, and depressing.
I feel pathetic.

christopher tay has his msn ick all so emo, down and out.
I have no idea whats going on.
seriously, no matter how much I hate him for taking my hp and reading my smses,
I still don't wanna see any of my friends so emotionally drained.
or rather, one word; sad.
come on, smile tay (: plus do the banana dance!
awwww. smile please [:

oh, how much do you love me?

with lotsa love,

I'm Jolene <3

he doesn't love me.

2007-04-17T02:22:00.000-11:00

hello, I'm feeling very worked up now.
in school I got so effing pissed by so many assholes.
& my wallet got once again taken plus ez-link exposed.
worst of all, my handphone got snatched and my smses were read.
fag you all taggots.
moron, dang you.
go screw yourself! D:
piece of shit. I shall have my ez-link card in my blouse everyday now. damn D:

talking about sms, I read those past smses in which I still keep.
no matter how superficial or over they may be,
I still smiled.
those times we shared,
I'll never forget.
still, I'm a loser.

I realised that making someone happy and smile because of you,

is really a great feeling. :D

I still remember you,
& I would still go to the ends of the world for youuu.

he doesn't love me.

back to school!

2007-04-15T23:16:00.000-11:00

you better CLICK to enlarge and have a full view of it.

I was laughing like mad,

or rather, so touched that I actually had a SUMMARY of my profile.

deviant art, oh deviant are. you're hell cute! :D

haha, this is my new msn friend.

she's a junior luh.

she said this, and I was laughing like mad.

hahaha, people nowadays. so cute ah!

school was average, as always. I still had flu, a little cough and blah. blocked nose too, in which made communication so difficult. eveyone was like, HUH? WHAT DID YOU SAY? -.- so I ended up repeating my sentences.

I kicked jerome's ass today. he made me so angry. he went to use the tie to smack me lah. hit me face, GRRRR. I went to hit his head, smack his back, kick his ass. yes, I literally kicked his ass really hard. I rock, yes I know.

ninja boy sucks, seriously. he's being a total bitch at times, then I feel like smacking him. dang him, go screw yourself lah. but no the other hand, he can be really nice! :D wth.

zhi chuen is a moron. he coughed out phlegm, showed me, chewed it, swallowed it. gawd, what a dickhead. -.- it looked like cum in his mouth..

today's first official day back to poly school. everyone's saying 'so sian, so sian' haha, ohwell. I hope everyone had a good day in school! :D

tomorrow is gary wong's birthday. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
happy early birthday noob! :D ok lah. since you gave me a big turtle on my birthday,
happy early birthday gary wong :D

I'm very sian, and I'm dreading all homework and blah. seriously! D: but in the end, guaikia/guailan still does it well :D irocklah. deviant art has been my new craze, well. at least a little bit lah.

LobsteR is my GREAT grate friend. haha, yay. Linus rocks, cos' he accompanies me whole day. or rather, he always makes my day. he's so nice (:

Linus,
May you never ever bang into any trees.
I'll constantly remind you to watch out for them too!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
ahmygawd. so cute.

ok lah, I was feeling a little down over that old shit lah,
but well. after I thought of my sea friend, I became happy again.
under the sea, sea friends rock <3

most of all I'm bored.

2007-04-14T03:04:00.000-11:00

LobsteR just went offline,
for the first time,
I feel like turning the notebook off.
it's just so boring and theres nothing much to do anymore.
friendster, checked.
blog, checked.
makan, checked.
ok, my shows now on.
I wanna go watch the Janet Dickson show :D
ahh, ok then. till next time,
irock <3

most of all, I'm bored.

I got muscles :D,

freak body D: .

I'm still sick.

2007-04-13T00:40:00.000-11:00

HEY TAGGOTS (:

I managed to get the photos I took eons ago!

so, here they are :D

I've got cam-whorers as friends. (:

ok, I lied. I forced them to take pictures with me. or else.. HEH >:D

ohwell, thanks to all my faggot friends or excepting such a dickhead like me! <3

the random photos I forgot that they actually existed :D

plusplus, my birthday stuff :D

awesome pictures taken by yours truly.

so effing nice, I bet you can get an orgasm lah! eh, kidding.

gerald's new BEST friend <3

awww, so close.

I'm wearing BLUE contacts :D

vera is a lameass, but she pebbles ( alt. for rock lah )

again, lameasses.

mastura is a cam-whorer, suprisingly.

ohman ohman, YAY to that :D

I look sfkvbierubviwer. D: ohman!

gah wai has a mole on his face.

CIP: my new AHMA friend, she's 90+ ok! :D

I love her and she loves me too.

me, and siti plus kha-li-pok :D

ok, so school was fine today. (: plus, I posted yesterday, but it didn't got uploaded D: dang lah. I was forced to upgrade to the blogger BETA shit.. or else I can't blog anymore! evil blogger. KILL KILL KILL! D: ohwell. so I had science test plus chinese part2 test! it went pretty well! so well, YAY to that. & I got back my previous science test results. I got 25/30. impressive huh?! well, guaikia studied, and NOT cheat like some people.. * nudges jessica * yunpeng beat me by 1mark and then he was noobing me. what an asshole.

today we had no training! so slacking plus walking around school to see people having their ccas was how mong and I spent our time. plus, some homework. ehh, little bit lah! then while going to get siewmong's bag, we met this guy. hmm his name is.. hole-in-an-ass/ass-in-a-hole/aslam. or something like that lah. hahaha, ohman. he's super hilarious pleasee! then he asked me for my name! I said. ehhhhhhh, I'm elmo! :D

ohwell, today I spat at jerome. and he spat back. what a POS! D: ohman, then I cleaned it on yunpeng, then he came over and grab me. ok, I'm so bad. sorry.

I'm listening to very awesome songs now. :D so, I'm happy. YAY YAY YAY!
ohyes! I got back the yearbook! D: what the shit.
I looked like crap.
I looked horrible. eeeeee! D:
so fugly luh. D:
everyone was like, OHMY, WAS THAT YOU?!
espacially the stupid unglam photo on the cca page. -_-
gerald kept mimicking that shitface of mine. not to mention, PUBLICISE too. D:

ok lah. my day was average. cos I really got super pissed during the last 2 periods of school.
dang the teacher lah. bullshit, all my hard work was not noticed or whatever shit.
or rather, she has a totally wrong impression of me.
what kind of shit is this.
ok, forget it. I shan't say much. or rather, I'm too pissed to elaborate.

I'm bored and not so happy now. cos' I remembered the last 2 periods of school.
ok lah, I'm damn sian now.
OHYES, I FORGOT TO MENTION, I'M CURRENTLY DOWN WITH FLU PLUS COUGH PLUS SORETHROAT AND BLAH D: OHMAN.

no matter how abrupt this is, I shall end here.
old syndrome kicks in, you get down.

I'm a kukubird.

I'm bored.

2007-04-10T21:25:00.000-11:00

HELLO PATHETIC FAGS (:

SHITHEADS (: ok, most of our cam-whoring pictures taken yesterday!
http://theladaye.blogspot.com/2007_04_01_archive.html
GO AND CHECK THEM OUT IF YOU ARE FREE OK. :D

so today was a FINE day (: well, school was per-normal. Genesis was being a dongdong sneaking my wallet and saw my damn ez-link noobshit face D: plus, commenting on my neoprints. -.- BULLSHIT. neoprints. hmm, I can't remember when the last time I took the last one. hmm?

anyway. today I had HISTORY test, in which I'm so prepared to fail it. D: man, it was really sjkvsjkvsjk man! D: come on, I did study for it.. well, I look through the whole 4 chapters! so well, I guess I did smile quite a lot throughout the paper cos I remembered what I studied! like a BIG WOOHOO?! & for all those dang cheaterbugs who cheated during test, WAHLAU! never study, go cheat, get good marks. PFFFT! ohwell, HEH. :D

PLUSPLUS, I got back my chinese test result. I was praying like shit that I would not fail it like the previous test D: guess what.

I PASSED CHINESE! 31/50 :D

I'm so PRO man, lalaladidum. I guess a little bit of studying CAN make a difference! hahaha. now who's the GUAIKIA now! :D

today, I went spitting saliva at people who pissed me. :D plus spitting water out from my mouth. sounds babaric ah, but HECK. it did work, plus. I was LMAO-ing. :D YAYYAYYAY!

oh yes, my shoe got black shoe stain thanks to moron ZHICHUEN. so then I named the black dot ZHI CHUEN. I literally drew it on my show ' ZHICHUEN ' pointing at the DOT. -.-

ohwell, I'm rather bored now. so I'm just listening to songs, ok. very AWESOME songs. <3

L obster

I s

N ot

U ltraman

S uperman

he's a power ranger.

sorry I leaked out that secret. D:

LinusLinusLinus has been my latest craze.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

here's a picture I took.

ME ME ME, I took it.

last night. from my window.

nice right? really, staring into such a beautiful scenery, plus the gentle breeze,

it really sets the mood. <3

ahh, I'm reaching an orgasm.

KIDDING, LMAO. HAHAHAHAHA!

the picture's really nice to me. & I took it.

I'm in love with my msn font plus blog font. :D

motion city soundtrack is my love now <3

I rock the most!

2007-04-10T00:04:00.000-11:00

TADAH all shitheads.

I LOVE THIS PICTURE <3

firstly, I just gotta say one thing:

Linus a.k.a LobsteR rocks.

as in, SERIOUSLY.

plus, yesterday night 11pm+, the most awesome thing happened.

thanks to LINUS! :D

ahh, ohman ohman. !YAY YAY YAY!

I was telling the whole class how much LINUS rocks ok.

ahh, so happy. today, I'm happy.

.happy happy hapy.

!joy to the people in the deep blue sea,!

!joy to you and me!

ok, now you know, I'm seriously happy plus high.

anyway, today was kinda of a great day in class.

Zhi Chuen became my good friend during art class ONLY.

then we were MR. BEAN-ing around luh, BANANAS in pyjamas ah, lalala.

then HERE THE SHIT THING:

I saw genesis' ass crack plus blue undies.

I saw gary wong's BUTT.

ohmyshit man, D:

not turned on, HELL NO.

turned off, YESYESYES!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, then I was LMAO-ing.

then dickheads garywong and zhi chuen started coming over to pull my bra strap.

!BRA STRAP!

D: WTH WTF!

P.O.Ses! dang you man! then I was so O.O,

so I went to pinch their NEHS. -.-

bullshit man. D: urgh urgh urgh!

anyway, change topic. so I had training today. so slack man. GANNY didn't come :D

ohyeah man! :D oh, such a wonderful day.

oh, I forgot to mention, I ran my shit for NAFA 2.4km today.

I think I passed.

no, I KNOW I PASSED.

I MUST PASS!

so then after training, suprisingly, MASTURA hanged out with us and I found out.

the most wonderful truth.

she's a cam-whorer.

just like me.

seriously, a BIG-TIME cam-whorer man! :D

ahhh, YAYYAYYAY!

now, I don't feel so left out or geekish when I cam-whore :D

DWANG, MASTURA ROCKS.

so then wenjuan me plus mastura cam-whored in the toilet for almost half and hour.

* I'll upload pictures as soon as MISS JULIET NOOB sends me (: *

so fun yaw. SO FUN!

oh, today is a wonderful day;

oh such a wonderful day.

I miss our seniors. they didn't go training today cos' they got mixed up with the venues.

ohman, MONG! I NEED TO TELL YOUUU SOMETHING! D:

& gah tomorrow's HISTORY test. D: so many chapters and I haven't started.

plus, MRS SNG ( lifts up eyebrows ) says that its gonna be a SUPER difficult test.

bah! D: OH OH OH.

I studied for todays' chinese test, and well, I guess I did pretty ok.

.I THINK LAH.

hehhehheh. so well, I'm not really looking forward to tomorrow cos'..

ahh, nvm. D:

ohwell, I'm happy today luh!

!YAY!

so, here's two things you gotta know:

FishY loves LobsteR

elmo is like me; we're both cool kids!

here's a poem I yet to get it down in my blog.

although it does not mean as much as it was supposed to be meant a few days back,

I guess ehh.. well, here it is.

.SOULS of SOULS.

I was jealous,

oh hell yes I was.

I became sad,

till my moods got bad.

I thought of you always,

I walked down memory lane at slow pace.

I compared our past and present,

for I seeked the reason to all these superficialism.

I sensed you're happy,

but I ain't content.

so I subjected to other happy pills,

to at least fake on a veneer.

you think I'm happy,

but hell no I ain't.

cos' you're my happy pill.

now can't you see I'm ill?

so where the hell are you?

I think of you always,

just as the ocean says;

YOU MEAN THAT MUCH TO ME..

you flood my mind each day,

I'm missing you everyday.

still I cannot find the ords to say,

for today is a sad day.

cos' I'm just loving youuu so badly,

but not getting anything in return.

forgetting someone was rather easy,

until it came down to you.

why must this be true?

oh why must it be ever so true.

ahh, I guess I'm missing youuu.

I'm putting on a stageshow,

the real show's backstage.

smiles and contentment is what you see,

but regrets and emoshits are actually what I keep.

for you I still long for,

now and forever.

I say I'm not missing youuu,

I'm probably lying.

I miss you terribly.

if only you think just the way I do,

everything's just going down down down the drain.

LIKE I SAID, THIS DOES NOT MEAN AS MUCH AS IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MEANT A FEW DAYS BACK, SO YAR. :p

a whole lot of love,

FishY a.k.a JOLENE

be good!

2007-04-05T16:27:00.000-11:00

meet mr duckie. he's a duck!

did I mention,
my debate group which consisted of gary wong, gary chen, gerald, gah wai, vera and I,
we won the debate against the ' we cannot see them ' group [:
*beams*
plus, teacher commented I was the best speaker yaw! :D
HAWHAW. a big YAY to that.

ok, fine. whatever heck. I'm bored now.
like seriously bored, stoning infront of computer wondering what to do.
blog, friendster, isketch, blah. I tried, it's so boring.
ahh, probably go porn later.
HAWHAW, kidding. -.- wth.

today's Good Friday,
BE GOOD EVERYONE! :D
I'm bored )':

cross country!

2007-04-04T22:49:00.000-11:00

.spongebob towers down on youuu.

HEYHEYHEY :D *smiles VERY widely*
today had cross country!
I was dreading it so much just yesterday. D:
but I guess it turned out ok!
the 3.2km was actually kinda well, shorter and less tiring then expected!
stupid TerenceToot said shut up to me when I shouted HELLO NOOB to him.
dumb rude ass ): sfjkgbsfjkbvkjvj
anyway, I got 169 position! which is a hell duh good improvement from a miserable no number tag last year! D:
so, LALALADIDUM!
& congrats to all wonderful superwomen BADMINTON people who got top 20!
& the NOOB, MASTURA who got 1st! OH MAN, WOOOO. :D
so then after the run, prize presentation and blah,
I cabbed home from westmall.
I was really tired, and SIAN. no where to go D:
then isaac ah, tay ah, zhi chuen ah, blah. they were going LAN today.
but then I figured I was so stinky and blah so I passed it.
but maybe tmr I'll be going.
play CS (:<
they said they'll teach me! lalaladidum~
so I guess nothing much really happened or blah.
so well, I guess I'll end here? (:
* Jolene a.k.a FishY is Linus friend *

fed up with my thoughts of youuu.
seriously speaking man.
circle circle dot dot.

sdjkvbksevjkefv

2007-04-03T02:44:00.000-11:00

KELONG continued..

me, heh. constipated shit face ):

HAHA, david so cute. lmao, -.-

uncle PETER.

this is a realy nice shot.

I'm probably gonna edit it.

make it a glam shot. :D

I took it okayy.

so pro. [:

piece of shit, you're a piece of shit! omg, I'm such a loser.

but really, you suck!

I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm happy.

I'm confused.

ok, lalaladidum <3

I shall just blog another time yaw?

I really have a lot of shit within me, I gotta sort it all out first.

ok, wait.

jolene, get a hold of yourself.

keep calm and composed.

things in school:

willy wAnker.

I pulled JIANPENG'S leg hair and he went to use highlighter to draw all over me.

christopher tay owes me a drink.

my wallet got taken again and my ez-link card got exposed again.

shit.

why the ah toot am I saying all these?!

shut up jolene.

*bang*

KELONG!

2007-04-03T01:18:00.000-11:00

KELONG!

FISHY AND BARKARFISHY <3

IT'S A BABY GAROUPA.

wait, I don't know how to spell :/

THE WIND WAS AWESOME!

TEEHEE. little fish (:

I guess, it's a FISH I see! :D

right right right?

biggest fish! look at those teeth man! D:

CRABS CAUGHT DURING KELONG.

MY VERY FIRST CATCH!

SOME OF THE CATCHES. (:

here are some pictures. I managed to upload some.

birthday pictures, random shots ah, probably I'll upload next time.

now, I'm lazy D: or rather, blogger doesn't upload the pictures. D:

evil. D: shit, cross country's coming soon. ):

& I don't like bob anymore. (: oh man, it's like. POOF, magic.

but well, heh. I don't know. all so nehnehpokkianinaguhujikkaru. D:

oh well. HEH. I'm lazy to blog. probably weekends I'll blog again.

oh man, this is so rush! D: oops.

I repeat, there are more pictures, but I can't get them uploaded! urgh ):

& terence is an evil noobshit. WAHAHA.

kelong kelong.

2007-03-31T23:29:00.000-11:00

hello.
anyone missed me?

I just came back from kelong trip. 2days 1 night. I got tan lines on my hands! now I can show them off in school tomorrow! so yeah, I missed PTM. good or bad? I don't know what I missed out in the talk. hope that it wasn't that important.

this kelong was a little pathetic. there weren't much fishes to catch. I caught some, but they were quite miserable compared to the other kelongs I went before. so then, the shower was kinda depressing. I still felt dirty after showering. & the electricity supply was inconsistent, so at times, it was really really hot. D: but there were times of awesome breeze too! natural wind. it felt so good! also, some occasional pours. there were abotu 3 big catches luh, but overall, it was just a so-so trip. I'll upload the photos soon. ( my usb cable STILL CANNOT connect )

at night, it was so hot, the matress was so NOT comfortale, I went out to just sit around and stare into the vast sea. the scenery was just awesome. it was so pretty and just wonderful. then I got into emo mood and thought of all the iggabugagahjinghingponika. then I wrote a poem:

staring into the vast sea this night,
is just such a beautiful sight.
in this night,
I rememered the one I had set my sight on.
the love that kept me going,
that charm that kept me living.
as the moon hangs so brightly admist the pitch black sky,
I thought of the one who seemed like a star shining in my life,
making everything kicking and alive.
you made me believe that love still existed,
and will still exist evermore.
in this night I see the everylasting vastness of the sea,
I remembered the love I had for thee.

-joleneneloj-

the scene was really spectacular. I had to write a poem.
isaac was nice this trip [: except for the occasional farts D: pfffft! & video takings when I told him to take PICTURES for me. so I ended up looking like some moron posing for like what seems eternity.

so then here comes the bad part. when we were at the checkpoint going into s'pore, we had to put our bags into this scanner shit yaw? then I put in 2 packets of chewing gum. 2 pathetic packets ONLY. then the officer stopped me, opened my bag and checked. then the POLICEMAN took out the chewing gum, asked for my passport, then took down my particulars or something. * by this time, I was scared like shit. like, damn stunned ok. I was thinking if I were gonna get a fine, a warning, a sentence or ??? you know, tv shows dramas everything, and so my mind went wild * then after that, he wrote " packets of chewing gum " then asked me to dispose them then sign on this book. OHMYSHIT?! for 2 pathetic packets, so much recording here and there and blah. it's not like drugs or anything right?! and it's only 2 PATHETIC packets! urgh. then after that I got on the bus, I found out that my friend managed to smuggle 2 tubes of bubble gum -.- gawd. how suay? ]: then in the bus, I was recovering from shock. oh man, no more chewing gums to singapore for me all my life man. <-- I guess so. pfffft! stupid policeman, too free. I HATE POLICEMEN! ):<

then when I came back home, dang it. then I felt like the world was just crashing all around me. I got greeted with something very unappealing to me. then so yeah, I guess my whole day got ruined? first the policeman, now this shit. D: the worst is that non of this is a practical joke ( 1st April is April fools ) so well, I'm feeling kinda down and shit. so much for the poem written and the wonderful illusions being built.

I ask, what's the point?
an illusion, stalling for a conclusion.

you're the one.

2007-03-30T02:12:00.000-11:00

.you're the one.

sometimes I wonder,

oh how much I wonder;

if the things you said were ever so true.

am I in reality,

or is this some kind of superficiality.

you're the head,

while I'm the tail.

we're just so far yet so near.

I don't know what you're thinking,

I don't know what I'm thinking.

I guess it's all an illusion,

stalling for conclusion.

oh when will it end?

oh when will it ever end.

you're the one I can't comprehend,

you're the one I long to understand.

you clog my mind,

oh you clog my soul.

your name's imprint,

on my toe.

without my toe,

I cannot balance.

just as without you,

I can't face life's challenge.

you're a drug,

I'm an addict.

I need youuuuu,

but I guess you don't need me.

honey, you get me crazy.

-joleneneloj-

today I went for CIP. the ah kongs and ah mas were kinda cute. hahaha, I had fun? I took picture with my new ah ma friend! will upload it when I can :D
so I figured that blogging is about penning things down as you would in your journal. & not tell the world what happened, every little single bit of your day. so I won't go much into detail although many things happened, plus the horrible morons who duped me yesterday when going to gary wong's house. yeah, kinda lazy to type about it. it's gonna be uber long yaw. so anyway, there was this super lame yet cute ah kong, he was telling us super lame cold jokes and riddles. here's one:

there was this man who got tied onto a rope with was tied on to the tree.
below the rope was a candle burning it,
and there was a lion lurking below him.
guess how he escaped!

the man sang happy birthday song to the lion and the lion blew the candle oout. -.-

HAHAHAHAHAHA! so cool huh! : D hahahaha.
ah kong made me happy today.
toot made me happy too.

music; it's all about music.

2007-03-28T01:46:00.000-11:00

I wish I could be, every little thing you wanted.
isn't it so sweet?
I love my blog song.

you know, this song really melts me?
as in, it's like.
when you tune in the radio,
or you're in a mall,
or even some highclass toilet that plays music.
your favourite or a song that speaks to you,
or just takes you away from reality plays.
then you would just like,
get so lifted up,
a little smile forms on your face and you just feel so happy.
you know, that feeling?
yeah, I like that.
then it'll often fade off to the person I yearn, cherish, like, love, blah.
or the person who got that song to me and stuff.
you know,
like a little self-reflection.
sorta?

so yeah, music soothes the soul,
music heals the broken.
music saves.
music is life.
music is love <3

you know,
just a few days ago,
I realised what missing someone so deeply felt like,
what loving someone so much till you can die feels like.
I realised what love meant.
I realised that love could cause so many dramamama shits.
good and bad.
oh the intricacy,
yes it's so intricate.

you mean so much more to me than you think,

I can't find the words to say.

I become a bore and let those times slip away,

I then regret all the shits I said.

I longed to tell you how much I felt for you,

but when you come by,

I lost it all,

I lost it all in you.

you get me crazy,

I cannot say maybe.

cos' you do,

oh yes you do.

I guess;

I'm crazy for youuu.

one word; love.

I want to be loved by youuu.
did you know?
oh what am I saying.

you made my day darling.

2007-03-27T01:37:00.000-11:00

I haven't been blogging. HAVE I?
yesterday, I was at the verge of getting really massively emo.
I was so sad, plus mad.
then I was like..
gawd, I was thinking of what a loser I was.
as in like, really.
LOSER.
so then, I was really down and stuff.
so then when siewmongthelonghthefongthepongthetong called me, my ego was all so boosted to like work towards this 'goal' and stuff, then she was like siding me and blah. well, I guess I did feel a little better after talking to her. well, siewyee may be TALL. but she understands me well! (: anyway, so yeah. I TELL YOUUU, I WAS LIKE SO DETERMINED OK. then when I woke up, all my feelings of strong determination and blah just crumbled. crumbled like I cookie smashed with a punch. gawd, was I so confused and I didn't know what to do, say, react. make it short, I was stunned. then I thought of the things that happened and stuff, and it's like seriously, something's fishy. or rather, it's so complex I cannot comprehen. it's really frustrating. so frustrating. I really don't know how this happened or what trigger it, but well;
somethings can never be understood.
& I hate that fact.

so morning when I woke up, I saw an sms from ben.
I tell you, the adrenaline that just surged through me body.
he wished me happy belated birthday.
and I was just so shocked.
I thought he forgot all about it and I was rather mad and sad.
but well, that message just made my day.
then, after that, I got high in school over it.
so high, something really embarrassing took place.
something so embarrassing I was screaming my lungs out and me whole face went red.
): wah lau, so paiseh.
vera, thanks for ta-haning me today.
I was really happy ben remembered me.
mr nice guy, I really missed you like shit.
I was thinking of you everyday ok,
seriously.

so then, Linus was really nice as to like, hear my shit out and stuff. as in, I really appreciated the fact that he didn't complain when I kept telling him of issues concerning affairs of the heart that did not concern him. as in, he cared to listen and well, try cheer me up a little? well, I was. (: thanks so much ok. you're so nice! ok, I promise better things and blah ok. as in, I was really in state of confusion and so many things and uncomprehenable feelings just smashed me right in the face, I didn't know what to do or react.. or rather, I just went crazy. in a good and bad way. so, sorry! D:

today I think I ran like almost 4km. I can die man ): sigh.

on friday, no cca. we will be going to do CIP! (: I'm sooooo looking forward to it! maybe another mohawk ah ma? (: YAY. so looking forward to it! :D

she's so cute. I miss her ):

in class, I went high. I did a lot of screaming, I apparently have lot of hoomework. oh yes, homework. urgh. so annoying ): oh yes, I'm really tat-bu-leh-tah-han-ing someone right now. nono, not someone, it's someTHREE. ok, dwang. wah lau, smack the shit out of them man! & paul, he kinda stripped zhi chuen today. seriously, I cannot stand him. as in, urgh. nvm -.- wo bu xi huan ta. in fact, wo hen ta! ( I must improve my chinese! ) oh yes, I saw terence the toot today, he's so horrible, shouting a whole lot of bangalah language to his juniors. plus, hafit

I have photos that have yet to be uploaded cos' something's wrong. I can't upload them ): sigh!

I hope to upload them realllll soon! (:

baby, you relit that candle.
I guess, that special addictive in you keeps everything going.

2007-03-23T02:03:00.000-11:00

random shots I took.

nice NEHNEHs huh.

don't get too turned on.

YUN PENG is an asshole,

a downright NOOB.

I repeat,

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOB.

JEROME, ninja boy and the NOOB.

I'm bored. really bored. effing bored. I'm angry and sad. he forgot. wah lau, wtf man. ): anyway. hell whatever. & I miss bob. like so damn much. dang him! ok, bob is making me sad nowadays. rawr, my mind's like bursting ok. like, whatthemama luh. ): but anyway other than that, I guess life's average. ok-ok luh.

so then today as a rather normal day. except for the liquid paper issue where my whole table got VANDALISED ' HAPPY BDAE JOLENE ' and a smiley face thanks to some dickheads from my class, heh. ( upload photo another time ) then after that, I had to scratch everything off. tiring ok! wah lau, dang those fags! :D rawr. OH YES! ruisi helped me too. *shivers* heh, it was really scarey. ahmygosh.

so then MR PATRICK turned out to be JUN LI. gawd, I feel so dumb. GAH! HAHAHAHA! wah lau man! but well, haha. that was a great PRESENT? lmao. so yeah, had training today. ehh, nothing much happened. except that JESSICA THOR ENG HSIA is an EEE DIII YIOT. -.- I was like smacking her dang butt. another dickhead. -.-

gary asked me if I wanted to follow them to go watch mr bean this sunday. (:

YAY! my husband, BEANIE! I wanna watch man (:

like, finally yaw! :DDD

ok, I'm really sian now.

I'll upload my birthday photos another time. I don't have them uploaded in my computer now. ):

ok, I'm effing bored.

bob's not online for days,

I miss him.

I'm going insane.

wah lau, such a dickhead ):

seanywanny?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

2007-03-21T23:17:00.000-11:00

I am 14 today. happy birthday to me.
ah my gawd, 14.
morning I was greeted with a happy birthday song (':
I received kinda a lot of presents today in class.
I even received a card from gary CHEN D:
wenjuan madalene bridgette anita jessica yongxuan sheena valerie gary wong gary chen rong hao christopher ng christopher tay yuxin quimei yuhan;
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!
hahahahahahahahahahahaha,
we had chips.
today was rather great.
yunpeng wasn't as evil,
I had fun.
received many sms wishes and testimonials.
going out for dinner later on,
I'll upload photos another day.
my cable doesn't work ):
MR PATRICK REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY AND WISHED ME!
*EYES WIDE OPEN* WOW!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KENNY TOO (:

AHMYGAWD, I TURN 14 TODAY!

wow huh?

my pre-birthday post.

2007-03-21T01:00:00.000-11:00

JOLENE SNG TURNS 14 TOMORROW! (:

hohohohoho. I'm turning 14 tommorow. yes, tomorrow. AHMYGAWD. and I even remembered browsing my hand phone's calender last year and I saw 22nd March 2007. it stated, ' ME 14 ' I was like wow. 14, so old.

and now, I'm really 14. like, SERIOUSLY. wah lau! so old! D: secondary 2, I've become a senior to my secondary 1 juniors. anyways, I guess I've grewn quite a lot since last year, learning how to overcome all shits that were thrown at me and blah, and also learn who my true friends were and how to be a better friend, to be more sensitive and stuffs like that. when I was 13, many things happen. MANY. now 13 going on 14, what am I to expect? will it be a better year for me? or far more worse than last year? I wonder. it's my birthday tomorrow and it hasn't been exactly a big WHOO HAH for me. as in, I didn't plan or requested for a party or even thought of what I wanted as my birthday present. well, of course I got a whole list of wants and blahs, but I want to be more pratical and also not make my parents spend unesscessary things. * yes, I'm such a great daughter * well, it's just that. birthdays seem to have lost that special touch.

so tomorrow marks my 14th year on this earth and my survival of all obstacles SO FAR I've faced. I met someone really special when I was 13 last year and it sorta affected me I guess?now 14, will anything change? I wonder, oh how much I wonder.

I've been someone who thinks a lot, and most of the time, think to much, resulting in getting massively emo over some dang it shit stuffs. sucks aye? D: also, I've been someone who gets affected rather easily over trivial things. days when I go massively emo, tears can just flow down so quickly. even quicker than you can say ' JOLENE ROCKS ' for 100000000000000000000 times. serious! and I can even cry so many dang it times for a person I care for and is really dear to me although I don't even understand why my feelings are this way or what exactly I am feeling. you know, that unexplainable confusement.

so this birthday, I don't expect much, really. just a little sincerity and surprise me? how about to just SMASH YOUR PIGGY BANK IN WHICH YOU HAVE BEEN SAVING MONEY FOR YOUR WHOLE LIFETIME, TAKE OUT ALL YOUR CASH AND GET ME THE MOST EXPENSIVE VALUABLE THING YOU SEE :DDD I WILL APPRECIATE IT, SO MUCH!

ok, really. this birthday, get me happiness plus love.
happy early birthday jolene sng qin ning.
you're turning 14.
go find your goal in life,
work towards it.
stop being an emo loser,
that's so 13.

this 14,
it's gonna be a good year.
I'M GONNA MAKE IT A GOOD YEAR.
OH YES, I WILL AND IT WILL BE.
how ego.

screamed in class, checked.
got angry in class, checked.
went high and crazy in class, checked.
failed chinese test, checked.
thought of bob, checked.
felt really sian, checked.
done my homework, SHIT!

hey honey.

2007-03-16T20:38:00.000-11:00

I really really miss you.
Like hell I do.
But things aren't the same, ain't it.
I guess with the recent happenings,
never ever will be.

honey, we yearn for different things.
only if we could settle for the same things,
oh hell what am I saying.
it's not possible.
still, your smile I carry;
in my heart.

what hurts the most was being so close,
so sweet.
then fading from a rainbow to just plain cold,
black and white.
why I ask,
nothing was said.
why do I still cling.

2007-03-16T03:49:00.000-11:00

MORE PHOTOS I FAILED TO UPLOAD.

SO MUCH FOR PROHIBITION FOR SMOKING.

AWW, GARY WONG LOOKS SO INNOCENT!
MY FOOT.

MORON SHIT HEAD STONING; me.

LMAO. LEH-MAO. LAO MAO.
CHECK OUT MY NEHS.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

D: :D

2007-03-16T00:00:00.000-11:00

I WENT FOR A MOVIE AT JUNCTION 8

WENJUAN AND I; SHE EDITTED IT.

1/4 MADELENE, WENJUAN, ME;

WE ARE SMILING COS' IT'S A SUNNY YELLOWWWW BANANA DAY..

THE ORIGINAL PICTUREEEE.

WE TOOK NEOPRINTS.
I WAS WEARING SPONGEBOB UNDIES.
OF COURSE I HAD TO SHOW IT. (:

WE SAW MR BEAN, MY HUBBY, TOO!

I WENT TO HOMETEAMNS OR SHOULD I SAY CDANS TO PLAY BOWLING.

I WAS BEING A COMPLETE MORON. (:

HAHAHAHAHA. I LOOK SO NOOB.

DANG.

SEE THE SCORE, I'M HIGHEST! (:

HAHAHA. ENELOJ IS THE HIGHEST! (:

so I went out to watch just follow law just yesterday. the show was an average luh. not as good as I expected it to be. then we just walked around and blah. just like any other normal day-out.

then today after training, we went bowling. I played 3 games. so yeah. after that, I went home. also, I took the same us as mr. gan home. gah, then he was like looking at me with the >:D look. dang it, oh well. ok, no mood to blog about anymore shit.

did I mention that when we were at the ticketing counter, this realy cute guy attended to us and wenjuan madelene and I were being complete morons. so moronic, he was even laughing -.- oh well, at least it 'spiced' up his work for the day? I mean like. where can you get such idiotic customers that can actually make you LAUGH.

I felt so good. he's quite good-looking.

wait, BOB's sexier.

morose.

the feeling I'm having now.

my day just got ruined even more.

those four words;

seemingly smashed right into my face,

piercing my already pierced unglued heart.

honey, every little thing you do or say affects me.

you're such an asshole.

something that digust me, yet is my love.

still I must say;

istill, loveyousomuch.

really.

ben, cheer up.

2007-03-13T20:28:00.000-11:00

ben, cheer up please?

I don't want to see you so sad.

it makes me sad too. ):

smile?

Somtimes I wish I could change the way I feel

Sometimes I wonder if being happy is real

Will they ever see the pain inside

Will it one day stand tall and be at my side

Will they then see how it feels to be me

Will they ever wake up and see

They don't know what I am going through

They just don't get what to do

A lost soul, some broken dreams

A flood of tears running into streams

A path of love, a path of hate

A soul that can only decide its fate

HAHAHAHAHAHA

2007-03-12T22:23:00.000-11:00

picture for the day

hello, ben called me up last night (: we talked.. nono. there wasn't much topic to talk about ): walau, aww man. anyway, I'm happy. cos' ben called.

mong and I had great training today. we won yuxin the noob and yuhan the ah toot (: OH YAY. ahh, we went hysterical. so fun! (: so then training was rather slack cos shiney was busy.. gosh, greatest news I ever got. :D SAY SAY SAY, YA FOOOO~ ok, I just got crazy over hard gay. damnit. stupid dickhead ):

forget the shit I said, nevermind. this post is really crap. I really don't know what to write.

things you gotta know:

I'm kinda happy.

I'm kinda having some unwanted burden here.

I'm kinda feeling stressed on the holiday homework now.

I enjoy talking to SIEWMONG THE LONG THE FONG THE DONG THE BONG.

My name became DONG today. credits to MONG.

Something I would like to say; a bangalah running is a bangalahDASHing.

2007-03-11T15:54:00.000-11:00

ok, I think that blogging isn't much of a 'what I did today' thing right? it's more of an online journal. JOURNAL. yeah? so yeah, whatever it is, heck.

I been to church.
I go to church rather regularly.
I sing with the congregation.
I see them tear,
I see them lifting their hands,
sing their heart of to God,
and being touched by him.
me;
I stare and feel nothing.
I stare at the church's drummer drumming away so passionately,
I envy his skills.
I see the church band rocking so passionately for God,
I marvel at what awesome music they produce.
I hear the singers singing their hearts out to God,
I smile at their beautiful voices.
nothing was about God.

after the music fades,
we get sitted.
I wander off to another world,
not listening to the pastor,
and even take the preaching time as a nap time.
I even once snored.
I didn't care about the sharing of God's word.
where's my passion for God?
am I just a christian by name?
yeah, I think I am.
that's pathetic.

in the past,
singing my heart out to God,
quoting things I learn from church to friends was so common and natural.
being touched by God,
having the strong natural urge to lift my hands and sing my lungs out for Him was so easy.
praying for God to touch me,
feeling my face going very hot and then bursting out into tears,
God has touched me.

now,
nothing.

God, I miss you.
I want you back next to me.
I don't want to be a christian only by name.
I want you back.
I want to be a happy child of yours,
thirstin for your word,
passionate for your teaching.
please come back?

I need to get my christian life back on track.
get a church I want to stay put in.
get a good cellgroup.

talk is easy,
doing is another thing.
I need discipline.

whatever it is, I've been feeling rather down and feeling rather pissed and unhappy with the world and life I'm living.
my birthday is coming. shouldn't I be happy, thinking on how to celebrate it and blah? nah. I'm fretting over it. I'm turning 14, so fast. and how in the world am I gonna celebrate it? I have no idea. and so, birthdays has become a burden.
forget it.

.all she needs is some love from you.

what the blah, why am I seemingly sounding so bakarfish desperado man.

roar, i'mmissingyoualready.

.mango.

:DDDD

2007-03-09T01:19:00.000-11:00

I taught POTATO terence how to do a screen shot.

how noob can he get?

I also taught him how to use paint to make picture's be able to be uploaded to friendster.

what I learnt; terence is a NOOB.

anyway, today was a pretty average day. hmm, during chinese lesson, weijie from 2e2 came annoying me like some piece of shit. taking my wallet, giving me that dickhead face and blah. D: then I was like yelling my ass off for him to return it to me, if not I'll twist his tits and make his tits into droopy nipple *evil grins* HAHA, then he went crazy, absolutely high, laughing like some jbiuebueibiue crazy moron D: smack him for addin onto the million scratches already existing on my mirror.

then during english lesson, we got into groups and blah. ninja boy was like bickering with me like some barkarfish gay and blah and vera was so shocked to see him behaving so fvbneirgie and talking so much. she was impressed how much I influenced him with my verbal diarrhoea bullshit. :D hahahahaha, I'm so fantastic right? :D jolene rocks, big time. <3

also, throughout the whole day, I was MAO MAO -ing and mimicking jessica ' wanking ' HAHAHAHA. >:) and yunping, gah wai, you li, gary chen and chirs ng were being a whole lots of shitheads and doing the \m/ in the most kjsgbuiebgve way. EE-DII-YIOTS.

and and, I got a new nickname ): YXBT- yong xuan bird toucher. during recess, I was flapping my hands and going crazy as usual and yong xuan came behind me. UNINTENTIONALLY, I whacked his 'little brother'. boom, he was covering it and squirming. oops! ehh, so paiseh man! D: then gary chen, gah wai, yun ping, blah blah, everyone, was laughing like siao. DAMNIT! so dropdead embarassing! D: then I was like apologising like mad and my face went red ): sorry! heh. roar, whole day I was being taunted by YXBT -.- sorry.

and and, gary wong and zhi chuen took my ezlink card once again without my dang knowledge and peeled off the sticker that was sticked over my fugly shit face. then they went around showing everyone. WTF, damnit ah. I must cultivate a habit to not leave my MAGNIFICANT wallet lying around. so then I took the card and placed it in my blouse. how safe (:

got back results slip. I did badly, highest was 76, no 80 or 90. pathetic, I guess I will have to work harder next term. now training is not as intense, so I guess I'll be able to focus more? sigh, life's pathetic. I'm sick of school now. really. D:

so yeah, then training, played badminton, barkfish things happened, lazy to say it. sigh, I'm a little tired and now there are some kids over at my house now. sigh, cellgroup.

so march holidays just started. man, anyone wanna go out? I really wanna go out. when, where? no idea. I just wanna go out.

yesterday I talked to ben about the things that happened over in the canteen, *smiles*

yesterday I talked to terence, damn him, I'm so jealous of him. D:

yesterday PAU told me of his super power, he's psychic. my foot. :D HAHA.

yesterday I was cramming for my literature portfolio, I finished it at midnight.

I'm not looking forward to SA1. it all seems too fast, I got the SA1 timetable already. why must time fly just so effing fast? gosh. ):

found out that my parents may be going away on mission trip for 10 whole days starting from the last week of school before june hols starts. awesome? maybe yeah. maybe nope.

roar, so everyone, have a great weekend ahead. roar, I'm sian now. no one's exactly online to talk to. I'm bored, so bored. I wanna play CS. I'm just craving for it. hmm, I forgot how to play it. : /

awesome picture for the day. (:

peace people \m/

it's all you.

2007-03-08T01:34:00.000-11:00

We don't talk as much as before,
My heart is dropping like the leaves in fall.
To hold your hand, nothing more,
Is what I want, you are my all.

Answer me now!
For my pathetic heart is crumbling.
In misery I dwell.
How can we be dying, if we never started living?

Oh, I am so bored,
Stoning here with all my dreams.
At least I have you to dream about,
Something for me to dream about at least.
But wouldn't all be better,
If you would come out of my dreams to be with me.

gosh, it's just all you.

roads to life.

2007-03-04T21:53:00.000-11:00

a photo taken while I was walking home using the overhead bridge.

I editted the picture, not really nice ah, but. cos' my handphone quality ain't that good.

now this is just a glam shot. <3 color="#ff0000"><3
and also, people to talked to me and tried to get me out of emo mood.
thanks to everyone out there. [:

roy; hope you'll feel better. tomorrow will be a better day?
cheer up, stay happy. (: things will get better.

and mong, grow some legs. -.-
mong: so is NEH NEH still sad?
mong: cause if it's sad, it'll droop D:
mong: you don't belong to an old woman right?
me: -.- LOL.. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

mong's nehneh, I'm pok.
nehnehPOK.

emoting.

2007-03-04T00:22:00.000-11:00

to describe my day today, it would be a BLAH + D:
so many thoughts just bombarded my mind.

I am jealous.
all of a sudden, I just felt so inferior of people around me.
people having so much freedom and fun all day long with nothing to feel sad about or whatsoever.
as if, life is just so perfect for them.
but then I think, why don't I see mine as perfect as theirs?
honestly, I think all the time. who doesn't.
but usually, these thoughts would always get the better of me and then everything just falls apart like a body without blood.
I wonder, what's my happy pill.
it's like, people around me, their lives seems a whole, while mine isn't.
their happy, I'm not.

I need God.
I don't have a church to stay put in to finally grow in.
the fact: I backslided, I miss God. I'm not doing anything over it except for just THINKing about the situation. how? everything's easier said than done.

I need true friends.
I don't really have a awesome friend whom is like someone, 24/7 there for me and understands me so well and sides with me all the time. when I'm wrong, they will explain and get me to understand what went wrong. not condemning me or showing me effing attitudes I think I don't deserve and just making life have meaning and make me happy, make me proud and honoured to have such a friend like you. accept me for who I am as I accept you.

I need someone to love me.
I don't have a partner. really, I'm not some good-looking babe or whatever shit. I'm fat. but really, at times when you're just in your own fairytale land, thinking of your ideal man in your life, having someone to love and knowing that he loves you as much as you do. adding colours and wonderful memories in your life. exchanging romance and getting love all around you.
I want that, I don't have that.

I need to feel appreciated.
at times when you just put your whole out there. doing your real best for someone. but in the end, you don't feel being appreciated as much as you thought you would be. there you're left, disappointed and confused if what you have just done is enough or not.

I need money.
not having things you want. I envy people with wealthy background, splurging all they want. not that I'm really in desperate need for money or a labelwhore, but having money can make you happy. if I were rich, I would probably go round treating people to meals and throw a party or something. seeing people happy for what I've done, makes me happy.

I need to know you're thankful.
cheering someone up when he or she's down can really be comforting. you feel so great all of a sudden, making someone's day. when he or she thanks you for being such a great pal, there'll be a sense of happiness and achievement in you. the feeling's awesome.

I want to be a better child of God.
I want to be known.
I want to be smart.
I want to know what I want in life.
I want to be that very girl you want.
I want to be pretty.
I want to be loved.
I want to be yours.
I want to be appreciated.
I want to know what's my purpose in life.
I want to know what to be in love means.
I want to know the meaning of true happiness.

I want to be happy.

boring

2007-03-02T01:21:00.000-11:00

picture of the day. gosh, it's so sweet <3

heyya people! :D dang ah, haven't blogged for days. busy with a lot of last minute cramming of work. oops D: anyway, life has been rather normal other than a few blahboopongpinghong here and there and occasional irritation and screams, yeah. everything's average lor D: zhi chuen has been really 'nice' to me and gary wong and gerald too [: and and, we have a project coming up and everything's kinda going rather smoothly! :D so, thats GREAT. well. gary wong, gerald, man those two, super great project partners man. as in, they can get everything done with a whole lot of shit and get things done wondedully in the end [: as in, it's rather cool luh. never been in such a group before, so it's kinda of a coolio poolio thing. :] so to get our project started, we styaed back in the school library and discussed and made a lot of noise and blah D: we got quite a few things settled though [: oh yeah, we had a GREAT talk. super duper gossiping man. it was that day that I found out that they thought the same way as I thought about some issues. it was definitely something. then we talked aboutt he class and stuff. gerald's not so immature after all [: gary wong is -.- so yeah luh. I guess there is a mature side in guys in 2e1. wth luh, I think I sound freaking fuggin gay writing on this. next topic!

chloe complained and argued with the teacher today by kaopei-ing me. as in, she wanted to jack me. instead, she got scolded and jacked right in her ass. wtf man bitch, go get a life. she's probably pmsing or something. I swear I didn't even annoy her or whatever. the whole day, I felt like smacking her. but, I didn't. [: jolene's good. ehh, I'll simmer. and I saw HAFIY the ULTRA MAN today :D he gave me this stupid face -.- hahaha. so cute!

oh yes! 1st March HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARY CHEN! <3>:) hahaha. very interesting I guess. HOHO. sigh, I don't feel like blogging anymore. anyway, there's training tomorrow really early and bbq in the evenining. so I guess I'll blog another time. for now, toodles people and infinite XOXOXO's to all. <3

and shit, my usb cable ain't working. I cannot upload photos. dang D: and I'm talking to zhi chuen now and he is asking me about BGR -.- wth, porn master interested in this shit. heh, man. I shall go educate him now. :D and terence is feeling down now so, cheer up terence! hope that picture makes your day? ahh, the world's not perfect, thats sad. ]: ok, shit I won't go all emo now. so yes. kthxbb.

I miss moncher bob.

happy!

2007-02-24T20:20:00.000-11:00

I am very happy now.

because I downloaded so many of my favourite songs.

I am listening to them now.

music make me happy.

I love music,

music make me go high and crazy and ga-ga and happy.

music is my best friend.

music oh music,

how much I love thou.

&& not forgetting vera, sheena and bridgette and blah blah blah people who actually spotted me on disney channel [:

YAYNESS.

jolenEneloj is so happy now <3

2007-02-23T17:15:00.000-11:00

shithead of the day [:

pugly fugly.

a little cam whoring here.

a little cam whoring there.

a little cam whoring here.

school was OK, with the exception of chasing around in class and screaming around school from the chocolate smearing monster, running away from madam tang and also the shouting at people who take my things. ROAR-

also, we got our science group. just as before, vera would come up to 4. then I was like.. SHIT. oh man ]: then after when she asked us to find our group, GAH WAI suddenly came up to me and say JOLENE! JOIN MY GROUP CAN? then I was like, eh, can! but vera also ok? you also need 2 girls mah. then he was like.. ok lor. so SETTLED! and and, please. I LOVE MY GROUP. gary wong is HILLARIOUS. gerald is CREATIVE. gary chen and gah wai are great accomplices of them. HAHAHA, so then we had a whole lot of shit fun. vera and I were laughing like mad. haha, I must say that that must have been the BEST group I was ever in. it was super fun. and everyone was kinda focused. YAY! so then we discussed and just made a lot of noise. HAHA! then during CME, we also performed a skit in which was a GREAT success. HAHAHA. and and, we had all our lines memorised without the need of using any script. in fact, we jsut verbally had everything planned, no paper and pen were involved. oh man, I was so impressed with my group! and for the record, gary wong does rock. HAHAHAHAHA. :D *beams* I love my group.

next up, sorry mong for fmngvbeuivbe you. wenjuan anita mong and I were taking turns to pull each otehr bags from going up the bus. in total, we missed about 3 buses. so then the first time, mong held my bag and wenjuan and anita managed to get up the bus. so then, boom. mong was with me and I was efjkbeiube her. HAHA. then then, after 3mins, I saw wenjuan and anita. they actually stopped at the next bus stop to walk back to school to save me. HAHA, how sweet. then we planned to hold onto mong's bag later on when her bus came. and we did. HAHA. then when our bus came again, mong held onto anita's bag and wenjuan and I got onto the bus. so we alighted the next stop and walked back to school laughing our asses off. well, everything was more drama luh. like, we were laughing hysterically, the screaming of bag pulled, bus uncle staring, in fact, people on the bus and people in the bus staring with the WTH looks, yeah. imagine that shit [: so yes so we pull here, pull there and after missing A LOT of buses, 945 bus and 188 bus came at the same time. so we all just boarded our own respective buses. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. how barkarfish. D: HAHAHA! and and after that, we went westmall slack a little, then went home. ehh, I was tired so I slept at 10pm. TEN O'CLOCK MAN! :D haha. and I woke up at 10am. LALALALALA~ so yes, I'm damn sian now. and thinking of whether to go tuition later or not.

lalala. I just downloaded a few great super nice songs. so nice! [: and and, I can't get some of the songs out from the software and blah. help? D:

I love you but I wanna forget you.
you're just such a drug.
still, are my my happy pills?
my heart still thumps just as before.
why, I ask. no response was given.

2007-02-21T01:19:00.000-11:00

LAST VISIT BEFORE SCHOOL RE-OPENED ]:

visit to uncle peter's place :D shot 1

I was bored. so yeah, enjoy these 2 chunks of pork legs :p

caleb is a well-known ACTION retard :D

ehh, he looks barkarfish. HAHA [:

david looks like sleeping beauty. aww, so pretty [:

so yeah, that was on TUESDAY :D I got more ang paos that day ! :D woohoo to that.

SO SO, AS FOR TODAY, 2 MAJOR THINGS HAPPENED.
FIRSTLY,
during golf lesson, kenny got whacked by the golf club because efjkgbqruilvgbqegklbegkbe. yeah, that was what happened. then his head got really BLOOOOOODY. D: man, poor kenny! it was really a lot of blood man.. D: ehh, I took picture all for the sake of blogging by the way.. HEH. so, please don't call me sadistic. I'M NOT! I feel for kenny. he looked in great pain D:

specks of blood outside the toilet D:
it's not tomato sauce. I tasted it. it was realy blood. ( ehh, kidding. )

poor kenny trying to stop the bleeding, but to no avail.

the ambulance came to the rescue and kenny left for the HORSE-PEE-TAIL.

so yeah, end of part one. as for part TWO, gary wong cried after getting kicked in the nuts by gary chen. what a way to show brotherly love. WHOA. and and. here's a priceless photo zhi chuen asked me to take. gary wong does'nt cry much. he makes people cry. now, HEH. man.. D:

so yeah, also, christopher ng got really angry because zhi chuen blah blah blah-ed. =_= HEH. and I went high and crazy in class today and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed for no reason :D HEH. so yeah, I gotta rush up some literature homework now. dang, SHIT. toodles people!

p/s I saw this really hot hunk today at westmall interchange. he looked so much like blahblah. OOH! :D * goes ga-ga *

2007-02-19T16:27:00.000-11:00

hello and happy lunar new year to everyone once again. hoho, I must say I did have an eventful night on yesterday's yesterday. I was sneaking online at aout 3am+ then I was chatting with jiaak pau, and ben. pau was driving me insane, while ben was going skvjrbvqwhibka. but well, things he said I must say may be quite true.

as in, at times when you're all alone, feeling rather dead cos' you feel so empty all of a sudden, and you really long for someone to be at your side, to just be with you and make you feel loved. or also, to have someone to hug or kiss or just love that person, knowing that your love is not wasted as that person loves you back as much as you love that person. then that strange feeling that surges through you to just want someone beside you. then you get all barkarfish and blah.. then suddenly, POOF. the feeling's gone and you decide to just go to sleep. I don't know if any of you feel this way before, but well. I do, at times. call me pyscho or something, but well, I don't know D:

anyway, yesterday I went to go bai nian-ing and I got more ang baos. [: and today I'll be getting more angbaos too! [: hoorayyy to that! so yeah, yesterday I went visiting my mum's relatives side. well, I guess yesterday went better for me as I had cousins around my age to well, talk to, and blah blah with.

then yesterday night, for the 1st time, I went over to my 3rd auntie's house. oh my, she was really prepared for the PIG year. her house was FULL of pigs man. FULL. DANG. haha. then we sat down and she started distributing snacks and blah. ok, lets just say that she had been a wonderful host. HAHA. then after stoning, AMOS, my 3rd auntie's son came over to well, talk to me. then he started sharing corny jokes which were type that would leave you stone dead. -.- I think he had no legs luh. [lame] HEH. then he showed me a picture he took with criss angel. OHMYSHIT, SO COOL MAN :D wooooo. then he started sharing some blah blahs with me. haha. then he asked to view my hp pictures. ehh, nothing to hide, so I just let him see. then while he was viewing, he was like EH, NICE ANGLE YOU KNOW! THAT'S PRETTY ARTISTIC! blah blah. HAHA, no one ever commented so gejkbgr on my photos ah, but well. HAHA. then I just nodded my head like some jolene nodding her head. HAHA. :DDD then when he came over to jiaak pau's gay picture, he was like, who is this? then I started laughing my head off and said that it was some senior. HAHA, wait. moronic senior I mean. HAHAHA. that stupid priceless pose, HAHA :D so yeah, we talked and lalala-ed until about 11pm+ then we made our way home. quite fun luh. so yeah, that's about it. I'm lazy to go on anymore. so, TOODLES people!

this picture's just awesome right?

right right right? [:

2007-02-17T22:14:00.000-11:00

I got $ 224 today [: I'll be getting more tomorrow though :D

ehh, random shots.

don't you just love $$$, as in, who doesn't [:

one of my outfits for cny. it's black. HAHA. :D

another outfit for cny. now this is red :D

random shots I took with wenjuan when we stayed back in school FOR FUN.
aww, jolene the shit head looks so cute :D
wenjuan looks constipated. HAHA.

yong xuan and I retarding. :D
haha, he had sweet in his mouth. moron. I spent 10minutes figuring what the heck was in his mouth. HAHA. :DDD

I didn't bring handphone to school. PROMISE :/

cny

2007-02-17T21:52:00.000-11:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE [:
I love chinese new year.
cos' chinese new year = ang pao = money
so anyway, it's chinese new year today and so I went over to my grandma's place, just like any other chinese new year, to collect angpaos. I mean, VISITING.
so yes, for the first time in eons, I wore a skirt. D:
HEH. then everyone who saw me were saying WHOAWHOAWHOA, erm, typical reactions luh. D: except for this ee-dii-yiot uncle, he's reaction was;
WHOA, ERM, TODAY IS FEBRUARY, NOT OCTOBER HALLOWEEN LEH.
walau, SMACK him luh. ehh, I did smack him luh. haha, then he was like, you watch the adam's family? and blah blah, barkarfishing me. D: HAHA. then I was busy smsing dennis and lalala people, then my uncle was like WHO WHO? BOYFRIEND AH? then I was like HUH? NO LUH, I LESBIAN WHY GET BOYFRIEND? -.- then he said LESBIAN? OH. THEN GOT GIRLFRIEND AH? HAHAHAHA. moron -.- HEH. then he started passing some lameshit things. -.- RAH RAH RAH.
ahh yes, tonight my cousins and my brother are going clubbing, while I ain't. why? cos' I'm underaged. anyway, usually your elders would advice you not to go clubbing and blah right? guess what my auntie said.
her: eh, tonight go join they all go out?
me: huh? crazy ah, I underaged leh.
her: you go lor, drink orange juice. go lah!
me: HUH? waliao. LOL -.-
heh, so cool ah. she rocks [:

some snap shots. from clockwise:
random uncle, ah ma, uncle, auntie, auntie.

more relatives :D

more more relatives :DD

more more more relatives :DDD

moron uncle. halloween your head D: HAHA.

I'll post more pictures in the next post. I can't seem to post anymore in this post. ROAR.
kaniPOOT.

2007-02-16T22:22:00.000-11:00

hello noobs. so, it's been uber long since I last blogged. man, so many shit things happened man. I really don't know where to start. D: roar. ok, hmm. let me think. *think think think*
erm, I came up with a new goal concerning 'bob' YAY. and I seem to be sticking to it and life's been a little better. well, at least I didn't go cry blah like some shit ass loser. :D so 3 cheers for jolene! [: WOOOO.
also, cny's here. I just had reunion dinner yesterday and I'll be going for another later. woohoo? heh. ahh yes. yesterday ERIC SOR came back to school [: I bet yuhan melted. HAHAHA.
and and, yesterday I slept at about 3.58am cos' I was busy chatting with TERENCE THE NIGGER, JIAN AN THE PAU, and ROY THE BOY. HAHA. TERENCE WAS DRIVING ME NUTS AND I BASICALLY GOT HIGH AND ALMOST FELL DOWN MY CHAIR A COUPLE OF TIMES COS' I WAS JUST LAUGHING SO HARD. HAHAHA. terence also thought me some shit sign language to do 'neh mind' HAHAH. moron. -.- then I was asking him to check on his legs if they were still there cos' terence is a lame black nigger. then we discussed about 'LAME' shits until both of us couldn't take it anymore. -.- GAH. oh yes, terence dyed his hair and I was the first one he knew to see his new hair. call it honoured? whatever. HAHA. oh yes, I was telling him about 'BOB' and he was saying that JOLENE FINALLY SEEN LIGHT AND BLAH BLAH. CONDEMNING ME. EE-DII-YIOT. and jian an was just laming over some shit things. dang, I felt like smacking him man. he was DROP DEAD LAME. GAWD. HAHA. oh yes, valentine's day was 'great' as in, I got alot of candies and people gave me a lot of candies too! and yong xuan wanted to get me a hamster. HAHA, so random. but then I told him nah, cos' well, I don't know. =/ then he said ok and he'll get me a BIG birthday present on my birthday. WOOHOO. so sweet :D
oh yes, these are some of the pictures I took during CIP. hoho.

we were tired and stoning.
I was tired, but fit enough to cam whore :D

we had break at macs HOHO. :D fun.

gerald. HAHA, oh my, his long lost brother behind him! :D
nah, gerald's fairer :D
haha, gerald seems CONSTIPATED [:

that rong hao the rong rong the hao hao the rong ge.
and christopher tay the moron [:
haha, well, he looks like a moron in this photo. NOOOOOOB!

thats vera and me when we became SPORTS LEADERS for the day [:
I edited the picture. nice right? [:
just say its nice.
thanks you. <3
oh shit, I gotta go now. reunion dinner. ROARRR-
blog another time.
so much more to say! :D

prank caller.

2007-02-13T01:32:00.000-11:00

I received an anonymus shit prank call which lasted for 1+min.
this was how it went

him: hello
me: hello?
him: are you jolene?
me: err, yar.. who are you?
him: AH MY GAWD! I MISS YOU !
me: err. ok, who are you?
him: I'm your frenster fren!
me: ooh.. ehh, who are you?
him: I'm your frenster fren! you are from swiss cottage right?
me: err, yar.. who are you?
him: I'm your frenster fren!
..........................
*hang up*

then I was like WTH! waliao -.- ROAR.
what was that for.
then I felt rather intimidated then I went round asking, but everyone said nope. D:
waliao, I feel so intimidated. D:
one thing, he had a sexy voice.
really damn nice voice :DDD
deep and low, but not too low. :D

:DDDD

2007-02-09T21:29:00.000-11:00

oh dang it. I haven't been blogging. oh BIG shit. so many shits happened, don't know where to start. oh yes, firstly:

8th Febuary 2007
Jolene effing cried in school after being provoked and pissed when she was already super depressed.
yuhan, yuxin and vera and mong, thanks for being such great friends tring to cheer me up and being so concerned thinking that something really BIG happened as if someone died when I went immediately alive and kicking in the next 5minutes. nevertheless, thanks yuhan for acting lian when you were in my class asking for who 'bullied' me. HAHA! and yuxin for the letter! I still keep it in my wallet! oh yes, I like your handwriting! well, at least better then pathetic MINE D:
also, Gerald. the one whom I thought would really be great annoying me all day actually smsed me. wow. he's sms was just so shocking. I was super surprised to actually receive that sms from him. he BLEW me away. haha, sounds wrong. anyway, this was what he sent me:
* whips out handy dandy handphone *

Hey jolene! look so sad these days...cheer up ! There will be better days ahead...good luck for tom history test....!

wow right? I mean. from GERALD leh. gosh, I was really WOWed man. that sms made me smile, sheepishly. wth, HAHA. thanks GERALD! [: you're not that bad after all.........

& thanks dennis for staying by me and hearing all my shit these days, accompanying me by smsing at night and blah. you've really been greay advicing me, cheering me up and listening to me shit. [: you know you're the best :D dennis rocks <3 I passed chinese test :D WOOHOO to that man! *grins* I think I'm gonna flunk history. I didn't study. D: I made NINJA boy laugh! [: its tough, but I did it. I finally managed to burned this wonderful cd with all the awesome songs in it after I failed once. it's really nice. [: had training and we had to put 1kg weights on our ankles. wth, it's heavy, it's annoying, it's 1kg. ROAR. luckily for short period of time only [: cos' then shiney asked us to be SPORTS OFFICIAL, I REPEAT, SPORTS OFFICIALS for the day to conduct some ' amazing reading race ' for the 2t people. cool man. as in, we managed to well, slack training (: and got to wear the tag labelled 'sports official ' *beams* then vera and I were super happy and high. WOOHOO! then at our designated place, which was suay-suay just outside the general office, we seemed as if we got punished or something. roar. then there was this sec1 guy, he's probably aged about 15, super handsome (he's good looking luh ), he asked if vera and I got punished or not. HAHAHA. then we were like showing off our tags and blah.
after our training, 5n2 came over to the hall to play badminton [: I stayed back to see them and helped vera to complete some of her english tuition homework. she begged me, what can I say? I'm a PRO [: HAHAHAHAHA! erm, just kidding.

9th Febuary 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJAMIN ONG <3 hope you liked my 'present' [:
saw khaiting, huili, margaret, soolin, benj ( he's got a good growth of hair! HAHA. I like his hair. ), many other seniors, YAY. super happy to see them. gah, I really miss them like shits luh. sadly I didn't see pau. terence said he saw me, but I didn't see him. D: oh well.
Os results released, congrats to all seniors!
top scorers and blah; can I steal some of your brains?
before we left for competitions, some swissflamers and I were making friends with sec1 malay kids. one of which I name him NINJA KIDCENTRAL boy, come on. he's sooooooo adorable [: haha, I sound like some auntie. SHIT. next topic;
won huayi sec, 4-1. [: last match for season. we didn't get into finals. D: sad, yes.

10th Febuary 2007
woke up dang it early to go school for dumb CIP. I got generous donaters, this old man who donated 10bucks to me, how blessed. [: and blah. it was tiring, it was annoying, I was perspiring, I wanted to sleep. yeah. that was how the CIP went. oh yes, we took a break ourselves [: we had breakfast at macs and blah blah shit things took place [: I'll upload photos I took soon. very soon [: anyway, I'm kinda addicted to audio adrenaline songs. esp hands and feet. really awesome song. esp when the chorus comes, I really feel like closing my eyes and lift up my hands and just praise God. awesome song :D ahh, thanks benj for sending it over [:
jian an didn't reply my sms. I'm angry. vera told me a whole lot of shit she said the day before in which I feel like killing her. wth, vera GO AND DIE. ROARRRRRRRRRR- D:
one word : shit.

hello, I've been thinking too much.
tu me manques, oh yes I do.
you're like an obsession, resulting as a big burden.
needing a new drug.
hunk; you seem to be losing that special touch, that special charm.
still, why am I clinging on.
how? why?
the spark in you is just a depressing flickering flame, still it burns.
I want so much to put off that little flame.
still, it's so tough. so shit.
go back to sappy love songs and memories we shared and dang, everything falls down to you.
and there I go with that sappy smile.
thinking deeper, that smile fades and changes to a pair of knotted eyebrowns and a depressing face.
you're a burden;
you bring me down;
you're the cause of shit feelings I have.
YET.
you bring joy;
you bring sunshine;
you bring smiles;
you make wonderful memories.
you're my awesome rainbow.
the majestic BLACK and WHITE rainbow.
dang, I'm jsut speechless over this shit.
welcome to this street where there's a rainbow at one end,
and darkness at the other.
see me stuck inbetween.

jolene's in one of her emoEST moments.
mind her as she shoots herself, dead.
erm, the dead part;
just kidding.

2007-02-06T23:14:00.000-11:00

oh yes, I'm back to blog. my brother told me where he put the usb cable already (: well, I asked him. WOOHOO. so yes, here are some pictures taken during yilin's party. oh yes, to elaborate more on yilin's party, the chocolate fondue went crazy and many of us, which sadly includes yours truly, tio chocolate on our clothes. siew mong, got the most. HAHA. and her shirt looked like some blog skin with blob of brown colour here and there. quite nice [: haha. so yeah, here are the photos! [:

me with yilin's BIG bear present shared with a few of swissflamers [:
it's super big, and huggable and nice too (:

mahjong pieces (: so nice right, JOLENE. [:

LOSER---> ... I did it. so creative right?
HAHA, yes I know I'm brilliant.
anyway, blueberry YUXIN loved it so much she decided to pull some dumbass thing and got people to take a picture with her and blah, with the LOSER pointing at them. here's it.

yuxin with oblivious person number one.

yuxin with oblivious person number 2; jing guang. ( wait, I'm not too sure of the spelling of his name )

MAHJONG people. [: swissflamers.

mong and me.

I know I look fugly. D:

rawr. heck.

so yes, this was practically MOST of the photos I manged to upload. as in, the others cannot upload leh D: anyway, roar. yeah, HOHO. tatas peoeple. I shall blog another time.

fyi; yours truly cried in school. WOW man. but I'm fine now.

and and, I'm sick about friday. I can't see seniors! D:

:DDDD

2007-02-03T20:00:00.000-11:00

I need the usb cable so I can upload all the photos, in which then I can blog about my day. or else, not fun ]: not interesting. roar. * usb cable, usb cable, where are you? come out, come out! * wth, that was gay. oh well, I really cannot find it. search everywhere, including the fridge. -.- anyway, happy belated birthday to YILIN! the party was GREAT[: and 2 more days to MONG's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance! [: lalala. drink more milk, SIEWMONG. anyway, you're the BEST. [:

why shit?

2007-02-02T01:24:00.000-11:00

'askjolene' WTH. SHIT THE SHUT THE SHIT THE SHUT THE SHIT UP! RAH RAH RAH. idiot faggots. ]: stop saying that shit. it's so friggin' barkafishhhhhh. RAWR. so yes, I hate the words 'askjolene', not to mention, the site. so prease hor, shut up. ]: I've been torlerating this shit ever since yong xuan brought it up, in which he didn't keep his word. KILL YONG XUAN! anyway, switch topic to another suay shit.

so yes. after flag raising, mdm zainab, the one of the teachers I dread most. yes, she 'shouted' for jessica sheena and minli and ME?! anyway, I didn't know if I were to stay back.. as in, I didn't do any shit. so I asked, " do I need to sta back also? " and she shouted ( SHOUTED), " yes, you also! " then I was like bjklqehuierhive. stay back then stay back lor, DIE already. so then, she continued scolding jessica and sheena for they were talking during flag raising and blah. so then, minli and I just stoned there like gundoos waiting for out turn to be scolded. as in, I was really preparing, bracing myself for whatever shit she's gonna throw at me. then, *BISHBAHBANG* after scolding jessica and sheena, she turned to minli and complained about minli, her earRINGS. then she asked jessica sheena and I to leave. WTH, she didn't scold me and she asked me to stay back to stone like some shit-ass gundoo and I was alreasdy bracing myself for the worse. gosh, DANG her luh. D: ROAR. anyway, so yes. I ahd a shitty morning. GAH. D:

after that, we had competitions against RIVER VALLEY. YAYness, swissflames won [: WOOHOO! \\// YAYness. so then today was the day I was the 'high-est' man. screaming and shouting still my screams went off-pitch at times(HAHA), and also clapping till my hand was red. roar. anyways, we won. 3-2. so, YAY to that. (: best match I think? at least shiney laughed/smiled/showed signs of '[: -ness' I must say, Gan seems to be a little happier, joyfulLER and well, smile-ly-ier these few days. like, ??? anyway. that's good I suppose. HEH. oh yes, he smacked me on my arm for saying that wj tried to hug him wth, super funny gayshit barkafish thingy luh. anyway, I hope I'm not infected with any balding disease D: HAHA. lame. -.- oh yes, speaking about lame, 2e1 performed a lame 'miracle' for miss rina. gosh, she started passing such drop dead lame shit and blah, gosh. jessica and I were laughing our asses off man. ahh. anyway. also, speaking about 2e1. yun peng is an idiot. he's a self-fish shit who doesn't let me copy his homework. ahh, oh well. at least ninja boy lets me copy (: wait. I just pretended to be referring to his worksheet then took down the answers (: oops. and also, ninja boy taught me how to built 'ultra man/transformer' shit machine, now I can 'twirl' my pen. It's so fun. in fact, it's SUPER fun. [: anyone wanna learn? super fun man! [: ahh yes. today's chinese test. vera helped >:) HAHA. so yes, actually it was OK luh. as in, my standard so shit I still find it OK. [: I studied! a little ahh. so yes, christopher tay didn't do his shit chinese homework, so he minused off 6 marks. then before that I already NICELY reminded him to do, but he just didn't care and said, " to me, nothing is homework. " then I was like laughing like shit. as in, his face and the way he said it, WTH. LOL. and also, he's a NOOB. drop dead NOOB. he spelt 'splattered' as ' spalt ' HAHA. noobman. I saw his oral paper thingy ah. LOL. anyway, so yes. back to his 6 marks minused off his chinese paper, he and I had a bet. I bet that he would fail his chinese, he said he would pass. the bet : 50cents drink. HAHA. :D WOOHOO. ok, that's gay.

walau, why I blog about school. so shit man. ok, I shall end here. so yes, tatas PEE-ple who PEE daily. [:

go to this link man. it's super funny. fugly ay shitass gay with a touch of hotness, not to mention paris hilton accent, HAHA. WOOHOO. ok, it's just GAY.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gp8ksW9--zk&mode=related&search=

oh man, you're still stuck in my head 24/7.
you're a marvel.
a big WOW to that. [:

shits.

2007-01-31T01:44:00.000-11:00

thoughts/shits of the day:
-to tame you.
-you influenced me, so much.
-on and off you were,
nothing ever lasted.
-why do all good things have to come to an end?
-if only you knew;
what I did for you.
-way deep down inside.
-long way to go.
-not special in those eyes of yours.
-everything happens for a reason.
-you left nothing;
except a state of confusion.

day day day.

2007-01-30T01:29:00.000-11:00

remember the mango I got from school?
here it is! [:

it's organic [: confirm.

looks edible right? well, it is. it taste rather good, for a mango, FROM SCHOOL.

*gives the blurr look* I'm tired. I had so many RUNNINGS today. plus the shit 8 suicides I got from badminton, I can die. D: so then anyway, recent things that happened. well, now I'm sitting next to a NINJA, jian peng. the one that eats ZERO chocolates, I REPEAT; ZERO chocolates, study most of the time, overly matured, doesn't talk much. AHH D: jolene's dying. she's containing to much shit that is just so wanting to just splurt out all the lame shit ass stuff but she cannot D: GAH, can DIE. ]: GOSH. DANG IT. I HATE IT. RAH RAH RAH. ok, skip that. I still have to face him everyday ]:

so yes, here's some extraordinary shit news for you. JOLENE SNG QIN NING did NOT get into chinese remedial! [: like, YAYness man! WOOHOO! *jumps around like some monkey* ok, fine. the teacher was just blind and I got a lot of help from vera >:] HAHA. WOOT. so yes. that's something good that happened to me so far [:

anyway, blah blah blah blah blah thing happened. training, in class, BLAH. cannot remember ah. D: and lazy to try re-call. dang it, I'm really tired and I've got ting xie tomorrow. DANG people, DANG! ahh, super tired nowadays. SUPER. ahh yes. I'm talking to gah wait today. well, he just pretended as if I wasn't angry with him ah, so natural ah, then FINE lor. FRIEND. HAHA, oh wth am I talking. forget it. I'm just in some shitty mood now, cause I just thought of something and now I'm feeling =/ yeah.

1/96539676967026893267835 of my thoughts in my head now:
you seem to be my friend.
a really good one.
but when you're with others,
I treated like second class.
oh gosh,
like wtf.
I hate you.
no, you're still my friend.
no, you're still nice.
oh wth, you're really horrible and shit at times.
oh, you're still my good friend.
gah, you know, whatever.
I don't wanna give a shit anymore.
is it me sensitive,
or you insensitive.
oh well,
whatever it is;
I haven't found a good true friend in class.
I mean, I'll be honest.
still, I think siewmong's a great friend and senior [:
never regretter knowing you. YAYness.
& I'm missing BOB.
and I'm confused over my thoughts of BOB.
gah, you're the voice in my head.
.............
.............
.............
.............

so yes, gah. I think too much. it's exhausting. oh wth, why am I sounding like some barkarfish gay?! ahh. so maybe I should stop in case I go efjkgvbuirbqeuvnqejkvnq. D: dang it lah. I'm feeling friggin' crap now. GAH. oh yes, I hate poseurs in my ____. D:so I'm getting a little pissed about that. ahh, * cups face with two hands * whatever lah. I must stop writing.

anyway, here's the wordS of the day while I was stonning in class, this popped out:
starlight,
starbright.
you're the one I see tonight. <3
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. [:

and also, joke of the day: ( super racist, but I think its dang-it FUNNEY )
why do niggers always think about sex all the time?
because they have pubic hair on their heads!
LMAO, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
ok, after all that shit, I feel better. a little, ahh. I'm tired.
so yeah, many loves and kisses from the sun, moon and water, TATA~ God bless! <3

CNY shooting.

2007-01-28T23:24:00.000-11:00

my shit clothes I wore to the shooting.

oh yes, my condo's lift got renovated [:

YAYness.

while waiting for my turn D: HAHA.

see what boredom does to you?

oh well, I turn to cam-whoring :D

woot. oops. wait, I don't have a flat butt.

I just pulled the jeans to slacks. [:

sexy. HAHAHA.

the camera crew while the dad's showing how to put the topping for the YU SHENG. [:

camera crew. coolness luh.

WOOHOO!

camera crew again. [:

a fetish for them? >:]

more shots of them. I was bored.

best shot of them [:

so yesterday I spent almost the whole day over at joyce's house as she was having a shoot for DISNEY CHANNEL. so it's like we were supposed to be 'pretending to be happy' and well, 'celebrate CNY' so then blah blah, after a lot of waiting here and there and some shooting of me and joyce's friends, we were done for the day. it was rather enjoyable I must say. as in, how many chances in this lifetime do you get to appear on tv? as in, its kinda cool right? HAHA. so then there was this scene where we were supposed to be acting to be enjoying the CNY goodies and I was supposed to be eating the pineapple tart, and seemingly trying to enjoy it. then, while trying to hard to eat and digest the OH SO DRY and not so nice pineapple tart while trying to REALLY ENJOY it, joyce and the rest were like laughing like crazy, then I of course, burst into SHITS of laughter then all the crumbs were like riovhqweruviqb. LOL. then after I asked for a 'CUT', I tried so hard to swallow the tart, but I tell you ah, TOO DRY. so in the end, I spat it out and complained. HAHA. then everyone were like laughing, even the producers. -.- then they gave up and asked joyce's other friend to do it. like, HAHA! then of course, they laughed and blah. HAHA! then another scene was when we were supposed to enter joyce's house. gosh, I smiled so fakeLY, it seemed so constipated. GAH D: oh well, so yeah. there were food too (: then there was this guy from the crew, he kept eating the BA KUA, saying that we shouldn't eat it as it'll make us fat, and we should eat the pinepapple tart ( SUPER DRY ) cos' it'll make us taller. -.- HEH. HAHAHAHA. so yeah, thats about all I can remember after ONE day passed. so lalala. oh yes, I was telling PAU about it, and he was like. ' disney channel? that means can see mickey mouse? ehh, help me ask mickey and minnie why they so long haven't got baby yet hor.. ' and when I read that message, I just burst into laughter and went crazy. like, WTH. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. stupid pau. -.- HAHA. lamer.

oh yes, when joyce send's me the file of the final 'production', I'll try upload it. then most probably you can spot like 3seconds of me in the 3minute film. HAHA. :D still, on tv leh. [:

lameass

2007-01-26T20:03:00.000-11:00

after that sucky match with the kranjians.

see, I told you I was ok.

no more sappy crying.

HAHAHA. [:

so then I downloaded some software from the net.

I asked some guy ah, then he jsut gave me the website.

WOOHOO!

now I can edit and blah blah everything.

now I'm just meddling with it,

trying to DICK out all the tools and stuff.

so YAYness to that!

any photos need editing?

I MAY be able to help [:

editting is one thing.

whether it turns out nice is another thing.

HAHA.

so yes, the picture's nice right?

I helped ben edit some pictures (:

it turned out OK. so yes,

trust me, I've got skill.

HAHAHAH.

2007-01-26T01:43:00.000-11:00

hello PEE-PEARL. [: ok, so much for that smiley face, swiss flamers lost today's match against kranji. gah, super wasted. at least, that is for me and wen juan luh, mr gan was like super disappointed I think. so then after the match, the first words I said was ' sorry mr gan. ' then I started CRYING. WTH, HAHAHAHA. thinking back, so paiseh man. -.- then huili, mong mong and the other people came over and yeah luh. comfort, lalala. so yes. we lost D: mr gan was like saying that we could've beaten them. but then, lady luck wasn't with us. sigh ): then we played kinda crappy? I must say that was not exactly our best. but, AHH. *faints* but the last part we fought till the end [: *thats the spirit!* so then wen juan and I and the othe badminton mates, we really need to buck up and play SMART! *beams* so yes. let me tell you about those kranji faggots. as in, the GUYS that went there to support an ALL-GIRLS competition. I tell you, they were the only son of a bishan faggots there. gosh, they were SUPER sacastic, SUPER mean. as in, they were shouting ' surely can beat swiss cottage one lah! ', ' ehh, they all no standard.. ', ' SWEE AH! SWEE AH! ' walau, like some bararic low-class ah bengs lah! WALAU, I wanted so much to go over and slap them or point the finger. _l_ like, KILL THEM?! at least the girls were fine. but the guys, WTH man. RAH RAH RAH. D:<>

ok, speak jolene.

so yes, what happened in class? many thing. SO MANY. first thing was, gah wai pissed me and I scolded him the F word like 10times? =/ oops. I was so pissed. then during english class, we were reading an article on groping in public and blah. HOW INTERESTING. then jessica and paul were shouting _______________________________________ <-- I cannot say it; it's so freaking shit ass barkafish. then they started asking me what was cybersex, what was petting, blah blah. I was like WTH, A BUNCH OF NOOBS. HAHAHAHAHA. well, at least it shows that I'm KNOWLEGABLE [: then a whole lot of crap came into place luh. the whole class all tripped over their hormones and started horney-ing. HAHA. D: so yes. then got gvbjkervnwrjkvwjlkfnv by teacher. ]: how evil can they get? ahh, wth. life's like that. so yes, many things happened. but well, how can I remember every tiny little thing that happened?! I have a memory of a goldfish. no, orangefish! ahh, so yes. if I can remember, oh what the heck. I won't be able to remember much. so yes, gah, rubbish is what I'm typing now. I really should stop. BIG time.

so yes, STOP.

oh yes, I managed to download some software and I did some editing. so nice [:

*beams*

ahh, I'm just testing it out,

so yes.

sorry if you think it's fugly D:

competitions.

2007-01-23T23:10:00.000-11:00

just before we left swiss for out VERY FIRST badminton competitions.

yes, I look constipated, oh what the heck (:
in the cab where the stupid taxi driver ker-tok us and took the long way. -.-

RAH RAH RAH.

some random day after training and we saw some sec1s picking mangos, and mongmong and I joined in (: YAYness to that! hoho, mong cheated, she TIPPED-TOE, cause she didn't want to seem short. well, JOLENE THE GENIUS was smart enough to spot that (: *shows up the L to mong* HAHA. AH-TOOT! the place where we had our 1st tournament (: *beams*
estatic over OUR MANGOES! (: AH-TOOTER and AH-TOOT! (:

johuey and siewmong.

WOOHOO! (: HAHAHAHAHAHA.

so yes, we won tech whye sec jsut yesterday, still I don't have any feeling of happiness or whatsoever. as in, that win wasn't exactly a REAL win. so yeah, nothing much to be super happy about it. now, I'm just kinda worried for our other matches D: God please bless SWISS FLAMERS. ahh, school's been tiring me out, espacially with trainings and stuff. gosh, motivation's needed. well, these few days dennis has beena real great friend, thanks so much (: and also, jiak PAU who actually remembered to wish me good luch just before my game (: HAHA. and mong mong, in which she talks about lemon and I talk about bob. (: oh well, life's been really shitty at times, then when I'm in school in class, I seem so happy and stuff. but when school's over, then.. GAH. not that I'm, saying I love school, but I guess my class people do make a difference. (: jessica, thanks for all the chocolates you fed the class with in which let us all gain calories, which equals to FAT. ): ahh, but anyway, heck. HAHA. ahh, at times I feel so HIGH, and I can just go crazy and be some happy kid. then at times, I'm just down. so friggin down, like some business people who got themselves into some BIG debts or big shit. sigh, then everything turns from a beautiful rainbow to some black and white crap. D: sigh those feelins really suck big time. ahh, oh well. I just gotta keep myself going and get myself back on track. =/ anyway, I've gotta rush some literature shit now, so yeah. I guess I'll end here. there's nothing much to blog about. I don't wanna get all emo shit here ah, so yup. peace people <3>

oh yes, did I mention that they were chefs that came to our school for some reason in which I don't know, but one of them is an angmoh, and gosh. he's drop dead sexy. WOOHOO! (: super hot I tell you. HAHAHAHA!

2007-01-20T21:29:00.000-11:00

who said cam-whoring wasn't allowed in the shower?

oh yay, enjoy the essense of life;

water.

barkarfish pose,

thanks a lot.

wait, thats fugly.

hisham did it for me (:

thanks so much <3

black and white seems to be what I'm seeing right now.

sigh, I'm in a real shitty mood today man. as in, I made this super huge BIG embarassing shit in which I've yet to forgive myself. gosh, anyone, if you could turn back time, please tell me. I so need that magic power. gosh, I'm jsut speechless now. gah, I'm confused, lost and feeling oh so freaking dumb. anyone, help? gosh, so much for self-oaths jolene. now you're in shits. GAH.

oh yes, I'm still yearning.

I'm still thinking,

of course,

its all you hunk.

you're my bitter eye candy.

2007-01-18T01:12:00.000-11:00

YOU WERE THE ONE WHO COULD GET ME HIGH AND DO THE CRAZIEST MORONIC THINGS IN LIFE <3

HIGH WAS WHAT I WERE, WITH YOU.

EVERYTHING WAS POSSIBLE WHEN WITH YOU.

SADNESS WAS NEVER AN OPTION.

but now, everything's changed.

you are different,
everything's different,

thing's aren't that sweet anymore.

then;

darkness is what I see now.

if only memories would just stop clogging my mind.

you are the one,

you were the one.

bitter sweet;

YOU.

you were the one I seeked,

you are one I seek.

but, the feelings are worlds apart.

from pure innocent happiness,

it's now a heart-wrenching burden.

square one:

if only if only if only,

things never changed.

& you were the same old one I fell for.

emo nights were caused, because of you.

hopefulLESS.

call me a shitass.

heck, you're like a drug.

evermore; drawing me.

random.

2007-01-18T01:03:00.000-11:00

chloe drinks her drinks really fast. =/ in fact, I think too fast.

cannot appreciate the essense of the drink =x

that was MY drink (: gosh, it's super filling. GAH! =O
chloe's new found friend for the day (:

so today after school, I went westmall with chloe, in which I've learnt that going out with her has many pros and cons. pros, she buys you things for FUN. -.- so I've got new earrings now (: cons, she's a disgrace, she goes crazy, she acts weird, she's super lame, she makes you feel weird. HAHA, oh well. yeah, thats about it. so today, things happened in school, class lalala. but I shan't talk much about it. call me up and I'll tell you. I'm too lazy to type it out. anyway, today's B girls competitions and our seniors won westwood! (: go SWISSFLAMES! oh YAY to that <3 vulgar ="/">

2007-01-13T19:50:00.000-11:00

I'm not in good mood now. ): so I'll make this post short and simple. so yesterday, had one of the greatest training with ACJC's badminton coach, Mr. Dicki. he was gentle, didn't shout, just good. as in, the style, the way he coaches, is really awesome. I as really impressed with him and enjoyed his training. so then jian an didn't go training cos' he was,.. nevermind, I assume he was just SHY. so then mushroom head HUILI came (: so then during training, I had no socks on because I forogt to bring my socks. then so now I've got 2 blisters. ): sigh, so now I know, socks are IMPORTANT. (: oh well, thats bout everything that I want to talk about that happened. I guess other stuffs did happen, but I'm just too lazy.

remember, I'm really fucked up right now. please, this is barkarfish, but just all shit to yourself. I'm really in bad mood now I can really really faint. my mind seems to be swirling round and round and many worries and problems are jsut engulfing me. so yes, I'm really bad-mooding now. please, don't make things worse.

sorry for all vulgarities used, but I'm really angry now. thank you.

fuck it fucker, ILOVEYOU.

fuck off.

2007-01-13T19:32:00.000-11:00

I am really pissed. fed-up now.

SUPER. I wanna like, kill someone?

damn the people.

damn the whole thoughts of shit things.

damn all the stress, worries, shit feelings.

damn all unsensitive people who think that I do not have any single bit of feeling.

sometimes I swallow all shit-ass bullshit.

those I want to scream my fucking head off and voice out how the shit I'm feeling.

but, there's a limit to all these.

and when the bottling gets filled, it's time to just let it burst and unveal the ugly side.

sometimes, I want to ask you to eeffing disappear and be fucking more sensitive.

everyone has feelings; which also includes me.

now, I feel better.

so fuck off, bitch.

& do what you preach.

days. suay sway.

2007-01-12T03:13:00.000-11:00

hello everyone, jolene's SUPER tired. SUPER sleepy. so then I haven't been blogging for days cos' no time man. ): SIGH. anyway, let me start off with:

11th January 2007.
stupid @#$%^ TANKER, MDM SUSUAN LIM, MDM ZAINAB caught me, jessica, valerie, sheena, minli, siti, lalala people in the hall. so then she was complaining about our socks. -.- she was saying it was too low, and just lecturing us. I WAS SO SCARED I COULD PEE IN MY PANTS. I didn't wanna get any demerits. then tanker and zainab commented on my 'long' hair ( it's not long, really. ), my socks too low ( it's not THAT low. other people even worse ), my uniform ( it was tucked in nicely. IT WAS TUCKED. other people's uniform is so much more worse, but they didn't get caught. so nice aye? ), and also, the black string I wear on my wrist. OHMYSHIT MAN. SO FRIGGIN' UNLUCKY. WHAT THE HELL. I COULD'VE DIED. ): so then that day, I was super unlucky and super angry. then later on during ET period, I was running like shit man. I was so angry so I just ran like crazy. GAH. >:( ROARRRRRR- I hate THEM. goodness me. *faints* so then I went to get a haircut that day as I was so scared. -.- and it turned out like SHIT. TRASH. CRAP. *faints* ahh, I CAN DIE MAN. SO SHORT, SO FUGLY. DIE DIE DIE. GAH. then now siewmongthelongthemongthesongthedongthebong calls me AH-TOOTERRR. -.- so now I look like a mushroomhead and I probably have to wait a few weeks until my hair grows longer, then I'll start cam-whoring. now, NO WAY. T.T
anyway, then later on that day, we had english lesson in which it was MY TURN to do my oral presentation. so then miss rina brought us to the library and instructed us to sit boy-girl-boy-girl-lalala. so then, I was unlucky enough that day and had gah wai and zhi chuen surrounding me. then while I was waiting for my turn, gah wai was making fun of gerald the camouflage and that the library has eyes. -.- & zhi chuen was talking about N.R.S then I was like, ' if you say rui si one more time, you love her. ' then he started saying NAI NAI NAI. then I said ' stop saying nai or I am so gonna kill you and you love her. ' goodness, I was laughing so hard that I had such a difficult time containing myself. goodness. then after I said that, he started saying MILKMILKMILK. WTH, ROFLMAO. I just burst out into utter craziness and got high. to make things worse, I was the next oral presenter. then, I kept slapping myself to stop laughing. IT WAS SO TOUGH. *faints* then I tried pinching myself but zhi chuen would just do all the stupid antics and get me crazy again. KILL ZHI CHUEN ):< color="#ff0000"><3
so then, it went pretty well :D I scored 9 points, HIGHEST :D YAY man :D
so lalala. these were the not-so-boring shit things that happened. :D

TODAY.
12th JANUARY 2007
ok, my hair sucks. everyone says so. and I totally agree. gosh, today, the worst most horrifying thing happened. stupid gary wong threw the same old FAKE 'MADE IN CHINA' centipede at me and I got tricked once again and I screamed. -.- WALIAO, KILL HIM LUH. STUPID GARY WONG. IDIOT. DIE DIE DIE. then after that, the whole class went laughing. then after that, I was like @#$%^&*(. GAH. so then after that LITTLE traumatic shit, I settled down. so did the class. just when I thought that everything was over, shikin suddenly shouted, ' COCKROACH ' then I immediately shouted, ' WHERE WHERE?? *eyes super wide open* then she climbed onto her chair and lifted her bag and I saw this SUPERDUPERBIGCOCKROACH. then I immediately screamed and climbed up onto my chair also and grabbed my bag which got on chloe's chair so I had her chair lifted too, then I sat on the table and super scared. then the roach just kept cralwing around, and then to my sitting area then I was screaming ' OH MY GOSH, OH MY SHIT, GO AWAY..' like some idiot and then when trying to dodge from the roach, swarup 'NICELY' came over with the plastic same old centipede and fiddled it at my ear, then I screamed and kept brushing my ear. WALIAO, KILL EVEYRONE LUH. ): I was scared to SHITS man. -.- then after that, PAUL took the roach with his bare hands and threw it away. WALIAO, BARE HANDS. goodness. *faints* I think he's crazy. anyway, after everything was over, I realised that miss tay was in the class and she was laughing at the way I reacted. -.- WALIAO, CAN DIE MAN. SUPER PAISEH. then after that, the whole class was laughing. URGH URGH URGH. then haikal, gah wai, lalala stupid doofuses were mimicking me, saying OH MY SHIT lalala and doing what I did. WALIAO, EVIL PEOPLE LUH. KILL THEM. >:( RAH RAH RAH. then after that, yong xuan gave me biscuit. HAHA, so random -.- ROFLMAO. then after school, had badminton training. lalala, no suicides. so then, YAY to that. WOOHOO :D anyway, then I saw POO POO KING TERENCE. *beams* so then tmr, I will be heading to school in the morning for extra training as our competitions are in like 2 weeks time. some ACJC coach's coming to coach us (: competitions. so fast man. =/ super scared. oh well, pray for all SWISSFLAMERS <3>

talking about sleep, I slept at 3.30am+ today. cos' I couldn't sleep then I was chatting with MR NICE GUY *BEAMS* and jiak pau/joker/jian an. then joker was crapping and blah blah and also killing me with his gayness. -.- and also, not forgetting his evilness. ROARRRR- stupid jiak pau found out ___________________________. SO PAISEH MAN. ): SHIT. so then I guess thats the reason why I'm stressed/feeling stupid/weird/tired? oh well. anyway, I'm feeling all @#$%^&*( now. my hair sucks, thats one thing. another thing is _____________________________________. YUP. sigh ):
I am AH-TOOTer. SIEW MONG'S AH TOOT. -.- mushroom head. I need my hair to grow FAST, like NOW. I want my hair back. SO MUCH. =x

boy, if only if only if only.
you felt the way I felt.

blog.

2007-01-09T23:47:00.000-11:00

hello EE-VER-REY-BAH-DEE, like the photos? cam whoring in class (: YAY. anyway, I haven't been blogging for OH-SO-LONG time. GASP~ anyway, so I'll try recall all the SHITS AND HAPPENINGS that happened (: so, I shall try break the blog into PORTIONS. sounds @#$%^. ahh, nvm so yeah. here goes (:

8-9th JANUARY
*SKIPSKIPSKIPSKIPto the part when we went for music lesson. too long.*
while the class was heading to music room for music period, I passed by the canteen and saw TERENCE/JIAK KAAN TANG/POO POO KING. he waved (: YAY. anyway, after passing the canteen, jessica and I were OH-SO-FRIGGIN' unlucky and we got 'caught' by mdm zainab as she thought that our blouses were untucked when it's not me, but jessica only. then she was lalala-ing about our blouses, saying that its only the second week of school term and we are already like that. then while jessica was tucking in her blouse, I was just pulling my blouse and straightening it. IT WAS TUCKED FOR GOODNESS SAKE. then mdm zainab said, " girl, I know your blouse is untucked. lift up your blouse.." and I lifted. AND IT WAS TUCKED. (: *grins* HAHA, then her face was so @#$%^&. HAHA. then she paused for awhile, speechless then said, tuck in more. -.- OHMYGAWD. *faints* GAH, then after that, she let jessica and I off and we headed off to the music room laughing like mad. then we told our 'fateful' incident to lalala people. HAHA. then there while we were waiting for the teacher to come, yongxuan and genensis were begging jessica to sell them her bag and blahblah. the only interesting and exciting part was that yongxuan said that he would kiss RUISI for a bag from jessica. *faints* then I was laughing like crazy and just going high. chloe too :D HAHA.

then after school, we had to stay back as there was sec1 cca orientation. after changing out of uniform, I went back class and blah blah. and I stupidly sprayed some deoderant on jerome. OH MY SHIT. then he went chasing me around the classroom with a broom which had male deoderant sparyed on it. then I reushed to the toilet and ran around the school. P/S I was perspiring like crap. then after that when I THOUGHT that the coast was clear, I went out of the girls toilet and there he was right infront of me. then I pleaded him and bullshitted to him not to spray me. thank God he was a gentleman and let me off (: YAY. anyway, after that, the badmitnon people rush here rush there, complain here, complain there, lalala here, lalala there, then we had a spot right infront of the pond where our badminton booth was placed. then play play play, talk talk talk, laugh laugh laugh, pick up shuttle that dropped into pond, saw seniors, dragged juniors, played SLAPPING GAME in which I could've died, walked around school with MONG, crapped and did all sorts of stuff. *JOJO* thing, and lalala. yeah, thats about it. OH YES, there's this sec1 boy, SUPER @#$%^& CUTE. HAHA (: and chee kiat's in swiss. OH YAY. super cute. HAHA, call me gay. I'm getting in the 'love-your-juniors' spirit. then I have super PRO juniors who can play OH-SO-WELL, and who are super nice too :D YAY to that. HEH, enough bullshitting, next topic.

so then after the orientation thingy, wenjuan and I headed home. at bukit batok interchange, some blind man was using his stick knocking here and there to get his way around, then when he was about to approach 852 stand, I was like praying 'please don't come here, please don't come here, please don't come here...' and I was super scared like dang man. guess what? he came. then he started asking, 'which stand is this?' then I had to reply what. so I said, 'erm, this is 852 stand..' then he mumbled something, then I was so freaked out already. then I switched place with wenjuan so I would be further away from him. then after that, he rummaged in his bag and took out some cds, then started asking, ' are my cds clean? is there any scratches? if not why the tracks keep jumping? do you know the cause of it?...' and then I was just scared stiff. as in, why ask me. then wenjuan boosted up her inner strength and answered his questions with a super constipated face and I was just O.O yeah. then after that, he gave up asking then just stood there. OH MY, super scarey ok. he looked super scarey. veyr big sized man. =x not I #$%^& or whatever, but I was really scared. SO SCARED. then after that, he walked off to the 77 stand. *phew* OH MAN. I could almost pee in my undies ok. *faints* then after that, wenjuan came to kaniPOOT and lalala, SUAN me and blah. -.-

10th JANUARY
did I tell you how much I hate isaac? he called me a bitch like for no reason. WHAT AN ASS. and he claims his dad is a pastor? and all those lalala stuff. not that I'm perfect, but. I mean, oh my gosh. I can die. he is just so @#$%^&* man. and then he was licking his palm, arm, and digging his nose? and one of his fingernails is like rotten. OMG. *pukes* gosh, he makes me so so so mad. anyway, another person. GAH WAI. stupid NANANA, calls me napoleon, and keeps on squeezing my precious strawberry uber ncie keychain and so it's now flattened. T.T KILL GAH WAI. PLEASE! then he took my pencil case, took my book, paper, URGH URGH URGH. KILL GAH WAI LUH! >:( RAH RAH RAH. anyway, urgh, stop talking about nanana. HMPH. anyway, one more thing. ruisi isn't my best friend anymore. she hit me! HAHAHAHA. *faints* I tell you, I was laughing like MAD man. then I told everyone what happened and they said ___________________________________. I was laughing like mad luh. haha, ruisi so violent. SIGH.. anyway, then today jessica did her oral and broadcasted the 'jolene went to the boys toilet' thing. -.- GAH. then ruisi did her speech and the whole class went hysterical. oops, don't call me evil but she's really.. HAHAHA. (: anyway, lalala~ thats about 1/1000 of what happened. cause I can't recall.

oh well. anyway, now, GARY CHEN'S MY PARTNER and he's a noobcake (: while I am nooblet, nooblene. stupid gary chen. threaten threaten threaten. now I look forward to chinese lesson. so then I can sit with VERA :D

so then that's about it I have to blog. gosh, super tired and sian now. why blog. -.- waste time. oh well, HAHA. I've got time to waste! :D lalala~ so until next time, this is SUPER DUPER S.N.G (:

S.N.G = SUPER NICE GIRL. <3
btw, I've got an emo thing to write about.
but I'm now not emo.
wait till I'm down and out.
then I'll post it.
for now, don't get emo, EMO.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. barkafish.

more pictures

2007-01-09T23:35:00.000-11:00

more pictures I took (: YAY to all. :DDDDDDDD ME; YONG XUAN. cum sucker. OOPS =x

UNGLAM, genesis. HAHAHA. don't give me that horny face. D:
RANDOM SHOT. NG in action. :D
it's jerome's hand, NOT paul's butt. I was forced to take this shot.
strawberry killer. dumbass GAH WAI.

KILL EVIL GAH WAI, KILL GAH WAI. ):

NANANA boy. HAHAHA.

cam whoring in class.

2007-01-09T23:13:00.000-11:00

cam-whoring in class <3

SPASTIC (: YONGXUAN. ilookfugly.
RANDOM VERA,BANGLAH LOVER WENJUAN,MEMEME.
KHALI-POK, MEMEME.
GARYWONG, GARYCHEN(noobcake NEW sitting partner), stupid dominic, ruined the perfect picture. with his OH SO UGLY finger. KILL DOMINIC. RAH RAH RAH.
GARY WONG. priceless photo. :DDDDDD

.iamsuperduper.

MOREEEEE

2007-01-05T19:02:00.000-11:00

so here are more edited pictures (:

HAHA :DDD

I can die man.

BARKAFISHHHHHHHHH.

JIAK PAU.

and MORE JIAK PAU.

YAY!
SUPER PEOPLE, are my loves :D
YAY, the picture says it all <3> OH YEAH, swissfLAMERS <3>

:D:D:D:D

2007-01-05T18:01:00.000-11:00

it's a barkafish gay day, so everything I do is all barkafish gay.

anyway, here's some badminton camp photos I just edited :D

enjoy :D

be barkafish today <3

you can always try click to enlarge (:

HAHA.

jolene rocks, BIG TIME (:

pictures (:

2007-01-05T01:28:00.000-11:00

bored, so here's come pictures. sigh, super sian now. I'm sleepy, but I wanna use computer. SIGH. LALALALALALA~ :DDD

I realised I actually got a PERSONALISED cup.

I think it's super old, as I can't even remember having taken that picture with me brother (:

CLOSERRRRRRRRRRRR LOOK (:

ME; VERA. sigh, I'm no longer sitting with her. *pouts* OH WELL, we're still as @%^& as ever.

yup, we're sad that school's in and holiday's out.

damn it, why do I look so BARKAFISHHH? GOSH. *faints*

2007, first few days.

2007-01-05T00:53:00.000-11:00

hello everyone, so yeah. I've finally blogged. GASP. oh well, school's been OK for me, not good, not bad. well, bad stuffs, I'm no longer sitting next to VERA, instead, GARY CHEN. stupid ass, GARY doesn't talk MUCH ): so then I ALWAYS have to try get him talking. GAWD. oh well, then lalala~ stuff like that. and for the first time, I'm looking forward to chinese nowadays cos' then I'll be able to sit wit VERA (: hoho. then today, I was telling gary, yong xuan, gah wai about lalala and stuff. and yong xuan did a nice theme for me (: YAY to that, and he's making another one for me. (: hoho.

then today we had training. we met our sec one juniors and stuff. YAY. oh my gosh man, they are super pro. SUPER. T.T oh well, HAHA. then yar luh. when playing with them, super paiseh. then today, jessica decided to go training, FINALLY after EONS, then SHINEY was asking her to do this, do that, come here, go there and stuff and miss ng was saying that jessica seemed like a clerk/auntie and stuff. HEH. oh well, she permed her hair (: so yup. HAHA. so yeah, that's about it on whats up in school for me. and, stilling moody-ing at times. HEH.

anyway, here are some pictures I took.. kinda random, so HEH. :D

2007 new year's day first rainbow. <3

just outside my window. pretty right? (:

the night before school, I couldn't sleep, so I looked out of my window and took some pictures (:

the scene I see everyday as I walk the overhead bridge when I get home from school.

if I'm UNlucky, monkeys visit. :O

a GLAM shot taken by yours truly in the evening at my condo's poolside.

2006-12-30T19:00:00.000-11:00

hello, this is stupid jolene crying. yes, she still cam-whores when she's sad. HAHAHA. anyway, 2006 is going to end. and 2007 is gonna say HELLO to all. jolene is dreadin 2007 so much. she wants 2006 to stay. HOW? oh man. dang. ): SAD SAD SAD. anyway, call jolene up to wish her happy new year. (: YAY to that. so, all the best for next year, everyone's who's cramming holiday homework just like me, I feel for you. its sucks, YUP. so 'HAPPY' new year people *squirms* how to be happy.

boringgggg

2006-12-30T18:53:00.000-11:00

plain, DING DONG BIRD.
PUAY LING and ME. *pouts* I failed to upload this picture the last time. =/
YO YO YO. let's play YO-YO. -_-
KUKOO HEAD.

oh man, I look deformed! like I've only got 3 damn fingers. nope, I've got 5 on each hand. neh neh ni poo poo. :D

hello, jolene's stupid.

I was bored. so here's some photos. enjoy. and 'happy' new year. LALALA~

iSTILLrock; like a rock. and uSTILLsuck; like a duck (:

SMILE and SAY IGGABUGAAKINNICHIGU D: wth.

bored.

christmas! :D

2006-12-25T04:01:00.000-11:00

everyone, I would like to kill HO PUAY LING, now. she made me re-write this WHOLE post. by some ingenious shit and backspced the whole post, just when I was JUST ABOUT to FINISH. DANG MAN! ROARRRRRRRRRRRR- * fuming * so this post might be shorter, cos' I cannot remember whatever shit I wrote. btw, I spent one whole hour on it. DAMN IT. KILL PUAY LING!

firstly, MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone! (: and to terence, MEWWI CLISMAS. so yeah, today's christmas, and then I spent the day by :

1) went to take an uber long 1 hour trip to expo kinda early in the morning with puay ling. so then chc was holding some stuff there. so then I tell you, the service was OH-SO-AWESOME man. the drama was super funny! HAHA. I was laughing so hard. HOHO. * I'm gritting my teeth while RE-writing this damn post * then after service, we were entertained by some chc people. HEH. =x then after that, we headed over to the carnival. it seemed kinda cool luh. then I saw DERRICK! (: then I went to him and tapped his shoulder and said HELLO. AHMYGOSH. he's so uberrr TALL man! :O haha. then after that, puay ling and I walked around the place, then were kinda bored and felt a little out of place then left the place. so then we bought cracker from 7 11 ( it's a store and more! ) then I recieved this really weird call. it went something like that:

me: hello?
caller: hello?
me: hello?
caller: hello?
me: hello? who are you?
caller: hello, you are jolene right?
me: yeah, I am. who are you?
caller: are you at home now?
me: no, I'm outside now. who are you?
caller: ooh, * HUNG UP *

I was like, WHAT?! * faints *

2) then we took a one hour ride back to west mall where puay ling and I had an uber late lunch, at KFC. fattening, yes. one word. HECK! anyway, after eating, then we went around walking and lalala-ing. so then, I got my brother this super cute christmas present (: & got myself another pair of earrings. BIG WHITE ONES! <3then we were kinda bored, then we went arcading! (: hoho. kinda fun. JOLENE WENT ARCADE! YAY to that. hoho, then after that, we both headed over to her grandma's house. there, I just played comp a little wittle bit, watch a little wittle bit of tv, then went out for dinner with parents, cos' they forced me to go out with them and didn't want me to stay back at their place for dinner. I tell you, at the dinner table, I was so @#%$ed up man. my parents were @#$%^&* man! I was super angry and @#$%ed up. anyway, I don't wanna talk about any shit that happened. so yeah, it just sucked so much. then after that, I pleaded with them to let me go over to puay ling's house to stayover. then after A LOT of bullshitting and LECTURE from them, they finally let me go. -.- GAH man. so then. now I'm at puay ling's house hogging the computer and RE-WRITING this post. URGH URGH URGH!

I tell you, this post could have really been SO MUCH longer. but, ROARRRRRRR- so yeah, it's kinda short ):

I saw this uber cute duck at west mall today! uber cute, no doubt. :D

I was at the arcade. super fun okay. I 'won' puay ling TWICE. ME. JOLENE. WON! YAY to that. then we were kinda noisy luh, so then after the game, we realised that there was sorta of a small crowd behind us. man, it was kinda embarrassing =x

puay ling & me, ONE HOUR MRT TRIP.

we all lighted up candles in the expo hall. the scene was A-W-E-S-O-M-E man. totally.

2006-12-23T21:11:00.000-11:00

HEY HEY HEY. it's christmas EVE (: but nothing much's gonna happen today for me. as in, I've not many plans, and I'm not allowed to go out to thon the night or whatever. sad life, whatever. anyway, I super duper hate my dad like NOW. cos' he's confiscating my handphone and being so damnit unreasonable on some shit stuffs. ROAR man. >:( I'm fuming, YES I'm fuming mad.

anyway, switch topic. URGH. so yeah, yesterday night(23rd dec), I attended some parents church friend functions and well, it was kinda fun I guess (: at first, I met puayling at my condo function room, then after munching on some food and oh-so-delicious-yet-super-fattening oreo cheesecake, I followed her over to auntie ho ee's place. then there, just stoned and lalala, got more cake, and then we went... PLAYGROUND :D so then we were just goofing around, playing swings and stuff.. then I was telling puayling about how sad I was.. (: hoho. and blah blah. my stories. HEH. then after that, we got bored and we went back to the house again. P/S I passed by shaun's house. but too bad he was super unfriendly that night so yeah.. WALAO. >:(

so then as we were walking back to the house, the adults were singing some christmas songs. I tell you, it was OH-SO-LOUD, and yeah, some notes were off tune. HAHA. then when we got back to the house, we saw ISAAC and DAVID (: so then after getting a drink, we went out again to the playground. then lalala, talked, stoned, rot, cam-whored a little at the playground (: then I was telling Isaac how sad I was and the first thing he said was is it because of ______________________ and I was like, OMG. HOW YOU KNOW. *faints* lalala~ then we just talked a little then yeah lah, just talked. kinda boring, but it really beats staying in the house singing songs. -.- OH YES, I managed to climb up the piramid.. not to the top, but ok height luh (: HOHO. then after that, puayling, her 2 brothers and david ganged up and rock the whole piramid. hoping that I would fall. too bad man, jolene's super stable and good at balancing :D so, I didn't fall (: then after stoning and lalala-ing at the playground, we got a call and then we went back. to COLLECT PRESENT. =.= oh well. then after that, yolanda, sean, david, and the rest of the people to just sit down and talk cock. I guess everyone was laughing like mad and we were talking about MISS SELF FRIDGE and lalala, stuffs like that. then we just kept laughing and some got high. (: then yolanda asked me to go expo on monday, so then I guess I should be going (: beats staying at home stoning and just rotting away. so yeah, at least I've got 'activity' this christmas :D

anyway, this christmas has been rather dull as I've been bad mooding-ing and feeling sad and stuff, and I didn't do much christmas shopping and nothing really exciting happened. so yeah, it's been a really plain dull christmas ): oh well. & I'm still dreading 2007.

so yeah, these are some of the pictures I took yesterday :D

ME and PUAYLING.

there was a mirror at the playground. COOLNESS HUH.

ME and PUAYLING, again.

I bet they didn't know I took that picture (:

puayling, her 2 brothers, david and ME. (:

I forced them to take that photo.

btw, puayling looks CONSTIPATED. HAHA.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERY-BAH-DEY <3

camp pictures.

2006-12-20T17:26:00.000-11:00

SO COOL RIGHT?! the whole team that went to camp! :D excluding JOKER. cos' he was taking pictures. awww. anyway, that was after bbq. we had this burning torch :D shiney's the only 'guy' there. HOHO! :D camp was eventful. not much of fun. ok, so maybe it was kinda fun, at times. =/ oh well, anyway, here's our caption :

it only takes a spark,

to set us flaming.

swiss flame.

souds so milo advert aye? I LOVE MILO! :D

WTF. I look like an AH BENG. ): * hides face *

WEN JUAN . ME . SIEW MONG . HAHA!

I love YUXINNN! cos she brought cake.

WOOHOO. CAKE CAKE CAKE :D brownies.

HAHAHA. :D

MY ORANGE SPONGEBOB UNDIES :D
too bad they weren't G-string. (:

ME & HAKIMA-NIE :DDDD

JIAN AN'S A JOKE. AGREE AGREE? HAHAHA.
jian an's super funny. as in look at his face you can laugh.
HAHAHA! JIAK KAAN TAANG?! ( I still don't get it man. )

CAM WHORE-RERS (:

LALALALA. act cute.
spongebob's cute.

so these were pictures taken during camp.

camp was fun, and sad when I got all moody and thought of next year when I was going to be secondary 2 and gonna have streaming and that there won't be anymore 2006 secondary 4 /5 seniors and of course, ben. ):

seniors,

you're all gonna be so missed like shit by me man.

jolene loves her seniors. <3

camp camp camp.

2006-12-19T19:07:00.000-11:00

hello chickens and ducks and geese and lalalas, and so I've just came back from badminton camp today. and I guess it was pretty ok (: but then at times, as I walked around in school, I look at the surroundings, then I would remember. next year, my graduating seniors would be gone and that really makes me super sad * tears, as in REALLY * I remembered during camp as I walked around in school, I would just suddenly be so moody and jsut dread year 2007 because of all the stupid things thats in store for 2007. no more khai ting, hui li, soo lin, graduating badminton seniors, I'll be having secondary 2 streaming, more homework, stress, and my whole stack of undone holiday homework just rubs everything in. and so, it really sucks big time ok. people I'll most probably miss. khai ting, ben, and most probably others too. so I mean, it's just super sad okay. )':

damnit. I'm tearing now. =/

so yeah, let's just switch topic. so camp was rather fun on the 1st night as wen juan, hakimah, qui mei, siewMONG and I thonned and we started talking about SEXperince and blah blah >:) I guess it was really fun, and at times shocking, but well, rather interesting too :D so yeah, we did had a lot of fun, whispering, gossiping and stuff >:D so yeah, I guess we had a fun night. we slept around 4am+ and woke up at 6.20am+ to go for our morning run. the run was kinda scarey but, we survived. and of course, tiring luh.

so the camp was basically training, eat, watch MOTIVATIONAL VIDEO and enjoy air-con at the same time, play match, run, complain, eat, bathe in freaking super duper cold water, scare ourselves bout ghosts and stuff, had bbq, sit down and CHIT CHAT, and play games too! and of course, show off SPONGEBOB :D

nothing much happened during bbq luh. just had some bbq which was just like any other bbq. and we also changed ' christmas presents '. I got a necklace :] and jian an was hoping for a bra. or was it a g-string? and then I was saying that I got 2 g-strings 4 christmas present exchange, but too bad he didn't get it. soo lin got it. however, magically, when she touched it, POOF! it became PATRICK! <3 then lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala. so yeah, I forgot what else happened lah. call this random, but then all I'm saying is spongebob rocks. my spongebob orange undies rocks too. and I was flashing them to everyone :D

spongebob was really loved during camp :D

during our sparring match, wen juan and I won 4matches straight, and we scored 1 point when we played with senior soo lin and khai ting :D * clap clap *

our team bonding games we kinda fun. :D and so yeah, good lah :D

so then yesterday night, or should I say this morning, we slept at around 5am and woke up at about 7am? I can't remember. all I could remember was that, it was super duper cold in the morning and at night, and it rained a lot. A LOT!

so then 'this morning' we couldn't sleep so we just thonned. at first, we were all in one big group sharing super cold hard lame jokes with almost the WHOLE group of bamdinton peps, then things started to get fugly lame and boring so we 'split'. before that, xiao ting was spreading her lameness which was super OHMYGAWD so lame. then jian an was such a dork and said that i was a joke then I shot back that jian an was the JOKE OF THE DAY! ROAR.

then, wen juan, me, qui mei, siew mong and lalala were with us then we just chatted and planned to have our same interesting CHAT the night before, however, it didn't work out. at the end, it was only me, wen juan, qui mei, hakima and vera. then we were super bored and moody as it was like we had nothing much to do and we really felt like dying and like we were kinda sad. then in this moody atmosphere, I began to think think think think think. which was no good, as I thought about 2007, which was a total shit thing. ): then I felt my eyes welling up with tears. damnit. then I just held them back and try find something to do do I won't think about this shit. then after that, everyone in the group was so moody and stuff. then qui mei and hakima decided to go sleep and wen juan and vera played cards and kinda fell asleep. then for me, I just listened to my music, hug spongebob and my head was super heavy as I was thinking about not-so-happy things. then after that, I heard the group of seniors who were still wide awake talking.

then as I lied one on the sleeping bag, and staring at the ceiling, I heard the seniors talking about love bites, and they were like 'whats love bite?' then I sprang up and sad, I KNOW, I KNOW! and I explained :D I knew what it was as the night before, we were talking about it. then so yeah. I was so surprised that jian an didn't know. HAHA. secondry 1 girl more KNOWLEDGE than secondary 5 dude. I feel so honoured. then after that, I joined the seniors and listened to their talk. I was kinda bored luh. cos NUMBER ONE, they spoke mostly in chinese and they spoke OH SO FAST! and NUMBER 2, they talked about upper sec stuffs. but oh well, I got some of it anyway. as in, I really couldn't sleep. then as they talked, I would just voice out some of my random fugly thought. like, JIAN AN'S BIG BUTT =/ , my wonderful sleep walking and all that shit. ALSO! jian an was saying something like ' JIAK KAAN TAANG ' which was eat potato in hokkien and saying something like I was some kind of westerner and said something like westerners eat french fries whihc is potato and all those then I was like HUH?! then I was quite blurr luh. -.- ROAR! anyway, jian an's got this really funny look on his face which I think is super funny lah. it's like, constipated, yet not constipated. HAHA! damnit. am I being mean? awwwwwww. wtf, I'm talking fugly gay now.

so then the seniors talked talked talked then I listened, fiddle with my handphone, hugged spongebob. then jian an would then say ' ehh, why joker suddenly so quiet? ' then I'll be like huh? I'm veyr tired but I CAN'T SLEEP! and I'm very sad. ahh, dang man. so that was about the standard reply I gave him each time he asked.

then after thonning, we decided to go sleep. then just as I lied on the mat, I saw khai ting and lalala people standing up and said something like wanting to go walk around school. so then I just followed lor. so I brought my torchlight, spongebob and left with the group. about 6 of us only? heh. so then jian an led the way, xinyi was at the back. I hugged spongebob in one hand and the other hand I was clinging onto yu xin :D or was it she was clinging on to me. HEH. then we just walked around the school, which was a little scarey and I just looked straight and walked. I didn't exactly dare to look into the dark room as I was scared that I might see ' something ' I wouldn't wanna see. so then I just looked straight and walked. then when we went to the hall, khai ting and we all stopped. then khai ting and jian an shone the torch around the hall and we were contemplating on whether to walk through the hall or not. the jian an was like laughing at me as my face hung a constipated look. I mean, it was really scarey luh. HALL leh. NO LIGHTS leh. SO DARK leh. so then at the end, we didn't. so then after we walked to the lighted area of the school, jian an looked at me and I was hugging spongebob so tightly and he laughed again. -.- then after that, we went back to our sleeping area and got some sleep.

man. dang. man. dang. I'm really bored and sad now. so fast, 2006 is over. I'm gonna miss this year, so much.

to all seniors, you'll be missed. <3

2006 memories.

2006-12-15T19:56:00.000-11:00

hello everybody. year 2006's gonna be over soon. this year, has been a really eventful year with tons of ups and downs. this is my first year in secondary school and so much has already happened. bitter sweet memories and everything.. sometimes I look back and just wondered why things went the way I didn't want them to be, and instead blew up.

the ' jolene hate club ' has been a really BIG matter to me, and it was the first time I ever felt so affected. then feeling of being boycotted, alone, fear, weak and vulnerable. the pain that just lingered in my heart for days and it just stabs me again and again. through this horrible painful experience, I really learnt a lot, and grew up. I found out many things.. dirty little secretes, back stabbers, and most importantly, who my true friends were.

I remembered the days in school which I felt so victimised and depressed. no one I could turn to, & at that time, I would just cry silently at night and also, I felt that God's presence was just so weak. I was really backsliding like crazy. then in my darkest periods of my life, wen juan was with me, and a few others too. shaun tan was always there for me. smsing him all my problems, he'll just try help, if not, just listen to them and he never complained. thank you shaun tan (: you're the best and you know it.
God's presense is a little stronger now, but I know I still have to be more hungry for his word & draw closer to him. (:

I also remembered the night I when I was crying and no one to turn to, and ben gave me a call knowing that I was super depressed. it was the first time I ever talked to a friend over the phone crying. I was feeling embarrassed, akward and everything. however, ben just comforted me and assured me that everything was going to be fine and everything. after that call, I felt so much better and I really wanna thank ben for that call. thanks so much for being there when I needed someone.

speaking about ben, he was my Mr. Nice Guy. it was rather how I got to meet him. he was the one whom never failed to make me smile and be so happy. the moments shared with him were the sweetest and I would never forget them. I remembered the first time he came over to my class to visit me and I went crazy. I just went HIGH immediately and drive vera, my partner, nuts. all the memories and time spent with him was just so priceless and they have been engraved in my heart like little heartfelt footsteps. I will never forget them. Mr. Nice Guy was the one who made secondary school kinda cool after all. knowing you has been a blessing. (: to everyone, as for all the mistakes I've done in the past which pissed you all or made you feel hurt or anything, I really wanna apologise for all that I've done. and sorry to my all friends if I've taken you all for granted. sorry that I've been such a lousy friend at times. however, I promise to change for the better as I don't wanna lose any of you or hurt you unintentionally. & I'll treasure each and everyone of you all. -friends. the ones who added meaning to my life and added colours to my story of only black and white. you were the ones who brought me so much joy and happy memories. I thank you all for that.
LOVING YOU ALL always. muacks.

WEN JUAN- the girl whom I've actually known since last year, but only got to discover the essense of her only this year. I've known you as a sissy and teacher's pet last year. however, all of these thinking changed when I really got to know you. you are one of the nicest girl and the BESTEST friend I could ever have. you were there when I need you, you took all my suans and endured all my crappiness. that's really awesome for someone to do that. you were the one I could joke with, GOSSIP with, share secretes with, chat, express my feelings and everything. this year, when I was experiencing my darkest periods of life, you were there for me. the period when I felt so alone, you were there for me, by my side encouraging me. thank you so much for everything you did. sometimes I wonder why did God blessed me with such a great friend when I myslef is such an ass. I really treasure this friendship. without you, I think my secondary one life would be a total nightmare. you've really been a true friend, shining a torch over me when I was in my darkest periods of life. you stood for me and just be there when I really needed a friend. & also, you endured all my shit and sometimes when things between us got rocky, we would just patch up so fast and easily (: so, I forever thank God for blessing me with you as a friend. & you rock. big time.

SHAUN TAN- I've know you when I was primary one. when I was a little dumbass. I remembered you as a NAUGHTY boy & used to scold you everytime for jumping around in class. -.- WAS I SO GAY. come to think of it, I've really been a complete idiot. what to do? I was only primary one okay. *slaps forehead* anyway, you've really been a great brudder to me ever since we parted last year HU 6 05'. before that, never in my wildest dreams did I ever thought of you as my BESTEST buddy and everything. you were only an sms away and was always there when I was sad, depressed, down & out. you would just listen to all my stupid gay problems and you never ever complained. instead, tried to give some advices and comforted me. thanks so much for that. you have been a really nice friend to me and I appreciate that a lot. sometimes, I think you're too much of a great friend that I don't deserve you. I must admit that sometimes, I feel that I take you for granted. nevertheless, you were alwyas there, like a pillar, supporting me. I'm very sorry and I promise to change for the better. thank you so much for everything you've done for me. thank you 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000X ! & I wondered what would happen if I didn't know you. It would be a disaster. thank you for being such a great brudder to me. (:

BEN- you were known as my Mr. Nice Guy. in the past, you were like a candy, being so sweet and all. I thought you were like the sweetest thing on this planet and smsing had never been so much fun until I met you. I remembered the times when we would just sms each other form morning when we wake up, until night time just before we go to bed. I also remembered the day you visited me in my class and I went all crazy and HIGH. I would gladly say that one of my happiest moments of my life was smsing/chatting/talking to you. you never failed to bring a smile onto my face. it was because of you I always looked forward to a new day. you have been a great smsing mate, and a great friend. that night when you called me to comfort me and assured me and even offered to help, I was really touched by that. [sounds so soapy] and then I was just so happy that at least I know that someone was with me through my darkest periods of life. you were great ben, you were awesome. (: however, all these things ended rather quickly after some things blew up. me being so naive and pissing you off, I'm really sorry. although I've tried 'patching' up, I guess things aren't the same anymore. I'm truly sorry for all that I've done that made you angry. if only I could turn back time, I would've made so many changes. all I'm saying is that I'm really sorry and I miss those times spent with Mr. Nice Guy. no word can express how happy I felt when I was with you in the past. they were just so wonderful to me. however, I guess the past is the past. nevertheless, those happiest moments spent with you will always be forever remembered, the joy and smiles you brought me. still,I miss Mr. Nice Guy. Mr Nice Guy, you're loved&remembered.

PAUL- you were the one I used to make fun of everytime, and never bothering to think how you might be feeling. I didn't think before I spoke, or wonder the immense hurt or sadness you might be feeling. I really wanna say a BIG SORRY to you for all the evil things I've done that has affected you deeply. all insults and hatred I've hurled at you, I take them all back. sorry for all my childishness and sensitivity. through our war, I've really grown and learnt a lot. I guess I didn't give you a chance to get to know you better, instead just jacked you again and again, that's why things blew up like mad. sorry for all I've done in the past, and I promise to be a better classmate. all hatred and hurt I've caused, I'm sorry for everything. it was all my fault. sorry paul, I'm really sorry. I hope that next year would be a better year for everyone.

and so you all have impacted my life greatly this year 2006.
I thank you for all that.
good and bad.
the good ones will be locked in my heart,
while the bad ones will be used as an experience.
thank you for all that you've done.

ALEX THAM- You're like one of the nicest and friendliest guy I've known. you've really made me really loved and appreciated as a friend. all the sweet smses. HAHA. you're super socialble and friendly luh. you were the first one to get me an EARLY christmas card! (: & I thank you for all that. you've really been a great buddy. you rock; and so stay that way.

SIEW YEE- SIEW MONG! you're like my best senior luh! (: the one that I can crap with, lame with, go crazy and get high with, ams and wth with, scream with, talk cock with, blah blah. HAHA! (: you never fail to crack me up. I feel uber great that there are people like you (: looking out for hunks, ugly ahpeks to 'give' each other, and lalala-ing. it's great that at least I know of a person who enjoys my crazy anitcs and lameness that even I myself cannot TA-HAN. you made training funNER and 'HAPPY' for me :D Ang Mong Seng, Wee Toon Huey, Barney, Bob, Lemon and blah blah, were really stupid, but it never failed to get us both crazy and HIGH. (: HOHO. you're great man. really. & I appreciate all the crazy crappy times spent with you. all the SUANs I got from you too. HOHO. you ROCK, and SUCK at the same time. HAHA. rock-rocker, duck-sucker. (: GLAD TO KNOW YOU, AND NEVER REGRETTED KNOWING YOU (: YAY to that.

FAISHAL- you're an uber cool dude. cos' it seems that the life you're living is pretty much the same as mine! we have like a few 'experiences' about the same. HOHO. & I think it's really kinda funny. I really look forward to knowing you better (: so far, I think you're a great guy with a great personality. great having a friend like you! :DDDDDDD HAHA. stay cool and PEACE! &you rock.(:

AARON- HELLO BRUDDER. I remembered the time when I first got to know you and you were like forever asking me if you could call me up and chat. HAHA. uber cute man you.. HAHA. then when I was free and you finally called, we were like talking about all sorts of random stuffs until my friend fell asleep and we were still talking. =.= HAHA! you're really nice and a great buddy to me. really happy to know you man. you're G-R-E-A-T! & we both love GOD. :D YAY!

JUSTIN NG- justin's a nice dude. whom can be uber evil at times when I start annoying him (: oops. you always 'YO' me in msn luh. HAHA. I think it's uber funny and a little weirdy-cute. HAHA. & I'm a little jealous of you. cos' you're uber tall and your chinese is OH-SO-PRO ): man. anyway, I remembered the FIRST time I met you at kelong. and I was erm. primary 4? HAHA. and I remembered I was calling you 'justin dustbin' and throwing pillows at you all the time, amusing myself -.- and I always won you in TAI-DI. (: HAHA. primary 4 kid win a *how old were you then?* secondary 3? 4? anyway, you were STILL thrashed by me (: HOHO. and you were always singing this chinese song all the time and that song got stuck in my head.. even until now, I can remember the song. A LITTLE! anyway, recently when I got stuck with some headache crappy problems, I confided in you and you've been a really good listener and advisor & you always reminded me about God, who is at my side always, now and forever (: THANKS THANKS. you're really appreciated! (: you're awesome, so stay handsome. -.- wait. but you're not photogenic. HAHA. I don't mind teaching you skills on 'how to look good on cam' HOHO. wait. I'm sounding gay here. anyway, justin's nice. YAY to that. :D

HILMI- hilmi's been a really nice msn mate (: everytime I'm online, and he's online, he'll always 'hey' me and we just go blah blah blah-ing. (: & he also thought me the ' .l.' sign. HAHA. I think it's pretty cool luh! & smsing you while you were in the midst of mugging and lalala.. haha. although we're not exactly THAT CLOSE, you've been nice enough to listen to my crappy problems and crack me up with your 'ingenius solutions' HAHA. and so I appreciate that a lot. (: THANKS! too bad you're graduating next year.. SOBS.

DERRICK- MAN. you're like the friendliest nicest guy luh. HAHA. althought I got to know you from chc and met you only a few times, I can just talk to you so freely as if I've know you for ages! (: haha. you make me feel good and happy when chatting to you in msn. (: I remember that we would always start chatting when you start off by commenting on my nick.. HAHA! so funny luh. then you would just be so nice and we can just like we have been buddies for a really looooooong time (: & you've been a great listener and adviser when I was contradicting on some stuffs. (: haha.. and you told me many sensible stuffs and reminded me all about being a christian and that we should lead a Godly life. thanks so much for being so great (: YAYness.

ZACHERY- you're a really weird guy. suddenly after last year when we separated from HU6 06', then you started smsing like crazy and I suppose I got to know you A LOT better and my horrible impression of you changed. HAHA! although you can be annoying at times by smsing me the WHOLE time even when I said I was busy -.- , I guess you're a pretty 'nice' guy. HAHA. at least your 'actions and words' always constantly nudge me on the fact that a christian should follow God's ways and not do ungodly things or say ungodly things. so thanks (: from what I can remember, or sms topics will always be on our 'crushes' and we would just go crazy and high. HAHA! so thanks for all those crazy moments & GOD BLESS YOU!

CALEB TEO- OMG. why in the world am I writing about you?! AHH. you're soooo irritating & childish luh. HAHA! oops. anyway, still, I remembered the 'fun' times we had over at alvrons when we were learning drums from wei sheng together. HAHA. pretty fun having you around, so at least when I make mistakes, I won't feel so paiseh -.- HOHO. so yeah, remember our fave. word fight? ACT-ION! (: HOHO. so yeah, I guess you can be really funny at times, so yeah.. HAHA. caleb teo. funny guy man you. HOHO! stay crappy. :DDDDD

GAH WAI- you've been a kind of a good classmate this year. although sometimes you can be so super evil and just annoy me, I guess you do have your good points too (: I remembered the BUG prank and EEYEER. MAN. YUCK. *pukes* ahh. so yeah, & I also remembered that I was super angry with swarup and was AMAZINGLY quiet and seemed a little angry then you asked me what happened. HAHA. I was kinda shocked that you actually could SENSE it. HAHA! & when vera and I 'split table', you and sheena would be like 'what happen?' and then rejoin back our tables. HAHA! so I think you're a relaly crappy funny lame guy, who still has a nice side. HAHA! you never fail to make me go hysterical whenever you mimick MS HENG. HAHA! so yeah, you've been a great classmate this year (: THANKS for that. :DDDDDD

GARY WONG- OMG! GARY WONG! you're like a super CUTE yet irritating miggit man! LOL. you're like always cracking me up by being all retarded and doing all your crazy antics.. you're lameness retardedness and craziness never fails to make me laugh crazily man! haha. I guess you're a relly funny nice classmate. HAHA. you're nice. SOMETIMES. HAHA! *smiles* and I remember the times when you went around spraying youre stupid deoderant and I ended up smelling like a guy and the whole classroom was just so polluted with your deoderant. *pukes* and me screaming and shouting at you when you annoyed me. haha. hope you won't take those words to heart? haha.. sorry! (: anyway, great having you as my classmate (: & MISS SWAN ROCKS!

CHLOE- you're a super strong girl & for that, I always try my very best not to 'make you angry' as when you hit people, its really uber POWERFUL. man. I remembered once you hit my back so hard untill I teared. I was so angry with you man. hit so hard -.- but then after that, I was cool. HAHA! so then other then a 'STRONG' person, I think you are a super funny lame person who always winsnme when we have the 'lame-fight' =.= you're jokes and remarks are just so cold. HAHA! you always make me laugh and go crazy with your super cold lame jokes. HAHA! & you're always so straight forward and frank with your remarks about people which I think is rather evil but still funny at times.. HAHA! I must say that you can get uber evil and annoying at times, but you're still a great friend, always smsing me to call you. & when you call me, I'm usually outside, bathing, in the toilet, using computer or just busy. HAHA! glad to have you as a classmate in 1E1 :DDD

VERA TAN- MY CLASS PARTNER! (: firstly, I wanna thank you 4 TA-HAN ing all my craziness and crappiness and noisey-ness. & also, me constantly asking you to let me copy chinese homework, and asking you all the chinese word meanings..HAHA! you and I can just lame all day and annoy everyone and never get bored! HAHA.. & thanks 4 lending me all your stuffs too. I respect you really, cos' you endured all my crazy antics, stupidity and pure retardedness for almost a year and also me when I get HIGH, like when Mr. Nice Guy came over to our class. HAHA! I remembered after that, I was at the fitness corner jumping around and screaming at you. HAHA! I was really high then. heh. & also, thanks 4 being rather supportive of me and teaching me all your lame antics. HAHA! great to have you as my partner (: although sometimes we get on each other's nerves, we would just patch back so riduculously fast and easily. I guess it's because we are crazy BEANIES. all my crayz horrific screams and laughter, you just went crazy with me. GOOD GOOD! YOU ROCK. BIG TIME! YAY to that. & of course! YOUR RIBENA! me always begging you to let me drink. then after all my annoying pestering then you'll let me drink. HAHA! and also, I remembered your endless singing of SUPER DUPER out-dated songs and cantonese songs! MAN! hahaha. you're damn funny luh. & I like you for who you are. so just rock it. (:

2006-12-15T19:41:00.000-11:00

SPONGEBOB's my LOVE.

JOLENE HEARTS SPONGEBOB.

HAHA. so now I'm sounding fulgy GAY. anyway, my face looks barkafish for some KOOKIE reason so, mind that retarded face D: HOHO. and anyone who wants to try steal my love, don't even think of doing that. I will KILL you. trust me. SPONGEBOB IS MINE MINE MINE. :D and so my badmionton camp's next week. & I'll be bringing spongebob along :D cos' he said that he'll fuggin' miss me :D HOHO. so yeah, I LOVE SPONGEBOB. SPONGEBOB is JOLENE's NOT siewyee the siewmong the mong mong :D

so I guess that's all for now every-BAH-dy, so PEACEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :Djolene OUT.

2006-12-15T19:30:00.000-11:00

I was in malaysia trying out SKIRT. TAHAHA. :DDD but didn't buy this one. it was 100+rm =/
I met osama and I skinned him. here's his face skin. :D *GRINS*

this baby simply adores me. he came up to me and smile while wen juan and I were at the library. wen juan, don't be jealous (: I guess I'm jsut more preferred than you. HAHAHA :D
& I bought a 2bucks gel SO CHEAP! so I went to waste it by playing. look at my master pieces.
& MOHAWKS ARE NICE. REALLY :D I did it myself ok. and if you're asking what's underneath the picture, it's a TOWEL :D HOHO.

and so these are the pictures I've been longing to post but then my usb cable just went kookie the last time. so now that it's working, I'm spamming pictures. :D YAY to that.

2006-12-15T19:24:00.000-11:00

anita WEN JUAN madalene ME :D anita WEN JUAN madaline ME :D again. bugis toilet. we went poopoo. :D I saw this BIG dog at vivo. I WANT IT. it costs 99bucks. ): so didn't buy it. no $$$$ D:

so these were SOME of the pictures taken during our day outs. & YES. my usb cable's working :D ben, no thanks. HAHAHA. dang lah. haven't gone out with you YET. ): sian. rotting away at home. ROARRRRR-

2006-12-15T19:12:00.000-11:00

HOOCHIE KOOCHIE MOOCHIE POOCHIE.
AT NEPHEW'S HOUSE. CAM-WHORING'S GREATTTTTTTTTT :D
I FOUND THAT IN HIS BOOK. IT'S A REALLY GOOD JOKE RIGHT? I WAS LAUGHING UNTIL I FELL OFF THE CHAIR! HAHA. He can be a GREAT comedian. RIGHT? YEAH.
MY UNCLE. -.- which is my nephews dad. HEH.

so I been going their house for visits. so then I was bored. so then I took pictures :D YAY to that. WOOHOO. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD jolene's talking fugly gay.

all in a craps' work.

2006-12-14T22:16:00.000-11:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOO. haven't been blogging 4 a few days. AW MAN. missed me right? I'm touched. *beams* anyway, yesterday has been a really great day (: first thing was that when we went training, we heard of the GREATEST NEWS ever; that there were no courts avaliable and our school hall was kinda 'out of bounds' so, we slacked for about half an hour lalala-ing while GAN made some calls and blah. then wen juan, hakimah and I were sitting down, lalala-ing and going crazy when we were supposed to be 'designing' our banner. =.= then while we were enjoying ourselves, GAN shouted, " GO, we can use the hall for about 2hours. .........." and lalala. so then we were like, " WALAU ): " but then just took out stuff and proceeded to the hall. & training yesterday was SUPER DUPER UBER SLACK :D YAY to that. I mean its like.. we just played match, do SOME drills and didn't run a lot :D YAY. WOOHOO. then after that, I rushed back home to shower, get ready and lalala cos' was gonna meet anita, khai ting and wen juan afterwards to head over to town.

then. I was kinda late. HEH. =/ so after the expected SUANS I got, we headed in bus 77 to go orchard. in the bus, we were non-stop talking. for me, while they talked, I just listened and keep silent. DREAM ON MAN. I WAS TALKING NON-STOP AS IF I HAD VERBAL DIARROHEA. THEN WE WERE LAUGHING. SUANING AND LALALA-ING. :D then khai ting asked, where to stop arh? I was like.. erm, when you see orchard then stop lah. BRILLIANT ANSWER RIGHT? oh well. I'm a pro at heart. that explains it. OH YES. in the bus there was a HUNK sitting infront of us okay.. HAHA. :D then, after about 45min, we reached. then as I stood up to get down the bus, wen juan said, " Jolene, I can see your orange underwear leh.. " then I was saying, " OH. really? Yeah. I'm wearing the ORANGE undies lah. SEE SEE, * pulls panties higher so that it can be seen * " HAHA. then wen juan was like, " OHMIGOSH JOLENE. got guy behind leh. WALAU, you crazy arh? " then I looked back, and then. I was like, OH SHIT. OH MAN. SO PAISEH MAN. =/ oh well. HEH.

then we got down the bus and walked walked shopped shopped ate ate & then walked around again. then anita, wen juan and khaiting got the christmas present stuff then we headed over to cineleisure. by the way, as we were walking form mall to mall, it was raining, so LALALALA, anita and wen juanwere afraid that they would melt, so they crammed under one pathetic small umbrella. OH YES, we took neoprints too. :D & we entered one to the COMPETITION. which I guess and I KNOW we won't win. ): anyway, I wanted to upload them, but stupid anita who claimed that she would return the pictures she borrowed TODAY, didn't. so I'll upload them when I free next time.

then when we went home, we all crammed into the mrt and there were some 2 policemen seen. I tell you, those big boys were UBER HOT.. well, at least one of them was :D HOHO. YAY. then when I got home, I went on computer straight away. then I went my blog and siewmong aka MONG MONG tagged my blog saying she was really angry.. then before that at orchard, khai ting told us why siewmong was angry.. then yeah, after that I went online and lalala to her and then go carry out some dirty little sweet revenge for her. :D OH YES, of course, before that, I was nagged by mum saying that this would be my last time going out this year as I was late and LALALA.. all the usual threats. so yeah. my day was spent like that :D as in, for YESTERDAY luh.

so then, TODAY, early morning I woke up, went training. we a had suicidal ten suicides and we also had to jump on some stupid stuff whihc made us look like stupid morons. =/ tiring? YES. then, after that, siewMONG, wenjuan and I were talking, lalala-ing and chilling after our training for about 3hours. gossiping :D and shairng wonderful stories. -.- & also, YES YES,during training, siewMONG told me a joke :

a girl got into an accident and she lost a lot of blood. so her boyfriend, loving her so much, donated his blood to her.however, after that, the girl decided to break up with her boyfriend over some personal matters.then the boyfriend agreed to it but had one condition, which was to give him bakc his blood in which he gave her.

GUESS WHAT SHE DID...

SHE THREW HER SANITARY PAD AT HIM AND SAID, I'LL PAY YOU BY INSTALLMENTS.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.WTH MAN.
I'M FUGLY AMUSED.
YOU BETTER BE TOO.
HOPE YOU AREN'T EATING ANYTHING NOW. :D

HAHAHA. :D nice huh? HAHAHA. then after that, we just went crazy lalala-ing, annoying everyone in cdans. PREASE. at least we DID have fun :D and when we also saw our 'senior' JIAN AN at CDANS, then siewMONG was like, " jolene, one two three we shout bye bye senior okokokokokokokok? " then we did. -.- guess what. he was so rude lah. he said, " bye bye. bye bye juniors.. " without even looking at us. ROARRRRRRRRRRR- hmph. anyway, we then jsut continued talking cock. then lalala already, we went back. wen juan and I were DICUSSING about some stuffs and heh. so yeah, then now I'm back home, I'm on the comp, I recieved a horny testimonial from BEN, and shaun's veyr happy because ___________________ , in which he is so grateful to me :D then ben was online and we chatted for uber short while then he was going out so ): ROAR. then I was saying that his testimonial made me sound like a fugly hooker. -.- anyway, tomorrow I maybe will be going to play BADMINTON with shaun and kyron and songyang? not too sure. oh well, thats all for now I guess. TATAS people :D

huh? ):

2006-12-12T19:40:00.000-11:00

hello everybody. look at the picture. that's how I'm feeling now ): *pouts* the year's going so fast. ): next year, I'll be in secondary 2, which means I'll be having streaming. ): which is equavilent to more homework, stress, pessure, which also amounts to being depressed. & the ETs next year. man. and also, so may seniors leaving. ): It kinda sucks alot. Mr Nice Guy's leaving, hilmi, khai ting, mushroom head, lalala.. ): *SULKS* man.

to make me more depressed, I just remembered I got a whole stack of uncompleted homework. ): I just get so sick when I see the chinese and it just.

so, I've been at home with no parental guidance 4 the past 2days which totally rocks my socks off as I can use the comp the whole day, no nags or whatsoever. I camped in the living room yesterday night and spent the whole night chatting to regan, shaun and ben a little. oh well, regan was feeling down. so I went to crap with him to try cheer him up. we were talking about octopuses and FATS. haha. after that, he said he was feeling a little better. YAY. I made someone happy. (:

anyway, my parents will be back today. so goodbye to my sweet 'night life' man. ):

so I ponned tuition today as I thought that there was CIP. oh well, so now that there isn't, I'm just lying on the bed with my notebook, writing this depressing blog post.

anyway, I wanna go thon in town this thursday, so I hope mum will allow. you think she will? I hope so. * wait. am I talking to myself or what? boredom's driving me NUTS* anyway, people who wanna go head out some day to chill, I'm more than willing. but parent's restrictions are just so !@#$% WANKED. man. anyway, next week's my badminton camp. I'll be bringing spongeBOB along. OH ! SPONGEBOB. thinking bout spongebob, I'm feeling much better already. I hope it'll last. and those sucky feelings won't come back. ): I'm sad.

p/s you realised tht everything's paragraphed? (: *clap clap* for JOLENE.
& justin wants money from me. >:( he and his stupid leather pouch. ahh.
what do I want 4 christmas?
give me ideas.
other than spongeBOB that is.

2006-12-07T19:52:00.000-11:00

hello mates. (: I'm uber bored now. so I decided to POST another POST. which is about any random thing I think of and wanna POST about. (: HOHO. YAY to that. *clap clap*

for starters:

DANG man. & this picture's SEXY (: art.

check out the man in pink~!
this is called 'dare to wear' (:
& I love this guy ! :DDDDDDDDDD
HOTNESS is ESSENSE.

tralalas

2006-12-07T18:55:00.000-11:00

HOHO. sorry mates for that blog post. ahh. don't know why got sudden moodswing. -.- MAN. so anyway, I'm feeling better now (: YAY to that~ so I came back from malaysia this morning at 1am+ and well, was pretty tired. *yawns* and so. the things I got from malaysia: SPONGEBOB toy, SPONGEBOB handphone pouch, 2 BLOUSES, 1 SKIRT ( yes, me. I got a skirt. HAHAHAHAHA), blah blah blah (: erm. got pretty a lot of stuffs lah. (: YAY! so then at m'sia, my mother, auntie and I basically spent our day shopping and stopping by at chendol stalls having chendol. -.- and my mum and auntie were comparing which stall was the best. -.- WOW? so yeah, I had fun yesterday I guess. (: HEH. took some pictures, but then I can't get them uploaded. ): BOOHOOS. MAN. ): *pouts* anyway, I'll try my very best to get them uploaded.. since that trip to VIVO, the pictures are still in my handphone. BAH. and anyway, I haven't completed my school homework, which just sucks. any kind soul to let me copy chinese homework? ahh. anyway, the week's sweeping off so fast. and next week my badminton training's gonne start ):< URGH. so yeah, I better enjoy for this week and try do more of my school homework as I'm way behind time. ): and next, next week, it's the badminton camp. ahh. I'm kinda looking forward to it I guess, cos' I'm gonne brign my SPONGEBOB there (: and of course, make SIEWMONG jealous (: YAY. so yeah, spongebob made my day. (: and today's hilmi's birthday. so, ................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILMI (:
HAPPY SWEET 16 (:
HOHOHOHO.
sound's so girl. -.-
ANYWAY, the main thing is
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO HILMI & MAY GOD BLESS YOU (:

here's a random DUCK cake. (:

I just thought it was cute.

so, NAH! GIVE YOU!

again.

2006-12-05T23:03:00.000-11:00

and here I am blogging again. I just wanna say that I'm feeling damn depressed now. and I'm thinking of a whole lot of things that are making me more fuggingly depressed. FUCK LIFE. FUCK YOU. FUCK HIM. FUCK HER. FUCK ME.

DAMN.

go away man.

fuck off and die.

I'm really damn depressed now.

can you tell?

I'll be better.

I hope.

& I feel a little better after venting out all my shit.

thank you.

and life's just like that.

it sucks.

go accept that reality jolene.

fuck up and wake up.

God Forgive Me Please.

iamnotlikethat.

VIVO VIVO

2006-12-05T16:51:00.000-11:00

FREEZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU MORON. (: MADELINE, ME, WEN JUAN (: SMILEEEEE .
I wanted to steal it, but it just wouldn't fit into my bag. ):

&& so, I went VIVO yesterday. YAY(: so then as wenjuan madeline and I were all POK, we couldn't buy much. so we ended up buying an UBER nice waffle snack from CANDY EMPIRE, some cards to be given to our friends for christmas, and yeah, thats about it. HEH. so CANDY EMPIRE WAS @#$%^&* NICE. AHH. CANDIES, CANDIES AND MOREEEEEEEE CANDIES (: *FAINTS* HOHO. YAY. but, no money, so couldn't buy much. >:( then after that, we walked around, goofed around, blah blah. then I went ZARA, hpoing to see ben, as he said he was working there. but too bad he wasn't there. -.o AWWWW. then he also didn't reply me when I smsed him. >:( BLAH MAN. yes yes, so then the things are are like so friggin' expensive, looks so business-ey. HEH. but the clothes looked really cool luh. (: HAHA. hmm, then we went to the pet shop and the DOGS were OOOOOOOOOOOHHH, SO CUTE :D haha. I've got more pictures, but all are in my handphone.. and something's wrong with the software, so I can't use it T.T AHH. so yeah, yesterday was really great. but I had to go back rather early as I had tuition. GAH. then yeah, stuff like that. that was how my day's spent. so for today, I'll be staying at home as I've got tuition in the afternoon. then tomorrow, wenjuan's supposed to come over, but she said she maybe no coming. so if she doesn't come, I might be going malaysia to go shopping (: heh. so yeah, I'm bored. and a little sleepy now. so I shall end here. && I'm scared of wenjuan when she's pms-ing. -.-

P/S stop suaning me. I'm getting very SIAN already. and wenjuan stop hitting me. -.-

FUNN. FUNN. FUNN.

2006-12-04T01:29:00.000-11:00

YAY (: I'm SUPER DUPER UBER HAPPY today. BECAUSE. I went shopping with wenjuan anita and madeline :D YAYness man. OH YES. I HATE ANITA. BECAUSE. she's a freaking chio bu now with her knew hairstyle. so what am I gonna do? maybe go pull her hair out or something.. HAHA. JUST KIDDING -.o OH YES. I bought so many things :D erm. belts, bracelet, socks, t-shirt, SPONGEBOB UNDERWEAR, and blah blah. (: and earrings too :D hmm thinking why in the world I bought earrings when I don't have any ear hole? well. I PIERCED MY EARS TODAY :D HOHO. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ I was jumping and going crazy in the shop. -.o and the sales people were laughing. -.- I mean. it was kidna painful okayy. HOHO. but then after putting the acohol, it was better. wen juan was like 'put the alcohol already then won't pain..' and I was like ' CANNOT. put too much later my ear get DRUNK. ' HAHA. okayy. I was just amusing myself so I would forget about the pain. so yeah, it costed 5bucks 4 each ear. so yeah. then I bought a bag too (: 20bucks. the uncle gave me 3bucks discount. HEH. then we walked, shopped, complained, talked, lalala-ed. then so stuffs like that. OH YES. we stopped at one shop and tried and tried and tried al the sunglasses then left the the shop without getting anything. I felt so bad. HEH. but, HECK. =/ I sound evil? HEH. oops. (: then after that, we headed back home. so I spent bout more than 70bucks today. && WE SAW PEISHAN TODAY :D HOHO. YAY MAN. by the way, I've got alot of pictures that I SO WANNA UPLOAD. but cannot. something's wrong luh. T.T OOPS. HEH. hmm, so plans for tmr is GO VIVO WALK WALK (: and shop for ALEX's christmas card. HOHO :D and today I've been smsing ALEX. (: HAHA. just to make you happy dude; ALEX THAM IS A DAMN NICE GUY (: HAHAHA. I bet I made your day man.(alex) YAY. heh. so yeah, today made new friend again. HAHA. JINGYI (: shaun's god sister :D HOHO. and I found that she was from pei hwa from pri. 1 - 3 (: HOHO. WEEEEEEEEEE~ so yes. things been pretty well for me. (: and I'm feeling happier. -.- YES YES. so yeah, this whole week no badminton training! (: one word: happiness.
&& SIEW YEE LOVES ANG MONG SENG!

so everybody. SMILE and say HELLO (:
woo. I'm gonna check on my ear now. TATAS :D

lalala man.

2006-12-02T20:53:00.000-11:00

hello every-BAH-dy, I'm freaking bored now. nothing to do. ABSOLOUTELY NOTHING. ahh. so I'm just sitting infornt of the computer screen rotting away. GASP. later will be going church again for some 'function' as in, there's a play luh. HEH. them tmr I
ll be going out SHOPPING with friends. YAYness. :D *clap clap* hmm. I have sooooooooo many photos I wanna upload man. but the nokia pc suite has gone KOOKIE and I don't know where my brother put the usb cable. -.O SADness man. and so yeah, I've been going relative's house these few days for visit. erm, no special occasion, just visit. -.- BORING. actually it's rather okay luh. -.- nvm. I'm talking senseLESS stuff now. BAH. so anyway, I've really got nothing much to say lah. DANG. & so, I guess I'll end here. OH YES, I'll be writing a uber long post next next week I think. It's gonna be like a 'testimonial' for all my peps (: HAHA. hoho, most probably your names' gonna be in it. cause. I'm gonna write about anyone, and everyone. ehh. KINDA. :D so yeah. BORED BORED BORED. -.-

kill my boredom. -.O

title-less.

2006-11-30T00:48:00.000-11:00

p/s JUSTIN NG commented that my post should be paragraphed. so yeah, I'm trying to adjust. TRYING. (: HAHA. not too good? at least I tried right? YAY.

today had training again. okay, this opening is like so similar to the other posts. WHY? cos' I've got training everyday. -.- so yeah, training was fine. not that tiring. then we did drills, played matches and blah. OH YES. I was using my 'new' racket :D YAY. POWER POWER :D uh-huh. then, tomorrow, we'll be having a friendly match with christ church secondary. kinda excited (: WOOOOT.

so today after training, had lunch, came back sneaked on computer, and guess what. -.- I recieved an email from 'aizen' the one who claims to have a crush on me, and that he's from swiss cottage sec. AH-HEM. oh well, I have no idea what's going on, so ??? oops. & sorry if I've been mean. *aizen* hmm. then after that the whole afternoon suddenly I had a drastic moodswing lah. DANG. & well, suddenly felt so shitty ass angry, pissed, sad, depressed. >:( & I WASN'T PMSING OKAY. just that suddenly I got so many things on my mind then I was really damn down. then I talked to joel CHUA and lalalala-ed. then I felt much better. (: too bad he had to leave kinda fast as he had to visit he's ah-ma who was in hospital and it seemed kinda serious. GOD BLESS HER. then after that, the day went pretty fine after that.

oh yes. I made new friend (: yu qi. HAHA. really CORNEY how I 'met' him. HOHO. then so now I'm chatting with him. HOHO :D YAY.

so tomorrow, wen juan & I will be meeting seniors up for breakfast :D erm. wen juan JUST got off the phone with me. haha. and its 20:34. HAHA. :D ahh. I'm really crappy today and my eyes are all so GONG. I was trying on my bro's specs. just a little while. oh well. * rubs eyes* ahh. much better.

hmm. yesterday, I spent the whole day crapping with siew yee. check this out. GO HER BLOG TO SEE BECAUSE I CAN'T UPLOAD MY PICTURES >: ( *GROANS* http://www.xanga.com/hopeinyouuu/ <-- A MUST GO & SEE. we were drawing :D haha. pro-ness man. (: YAY. so I'm going really high, fat, crazy and @#$%^&* now. (: I can't control myself. my fingers; my head =/

see:WERTYUIKMNBVCXSDFRTGHJKJHBGFGUJxhdtcgvjbsfkvgukbnm
eggbeujyvesfvhbrcsgjfskhgdckhbvgfyeriugteuyhikerbygv ihn58tb57ynt95bey65vhi7y5vughw<-- not me. my fingers' has its own brains. OH NO. GASP.
and siew yee discovered something. 'my lover' *pukes* WEE TOON HUEY's initials are. W.T.H
LMAO.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SHIT SHIT. I'M HIGH NOW. OH NO. I pity yu qi now. cos' I'M UBERRR HIGH NOW. GAH. *jump jump scream scream* AHH.. WOOLALALA~ okay, I'm going seriously kookie cock head-ish now. AHH. SHOOT ME SHOOT ME DEAD NOW. *bang*

jolene's been shot. so she'll finally shut up. rejoice. (:

training AGAIN.

2006-11-27T21:42:00.000-11:00

HAHAHA. this morning started off SO WELL. on the 852 bus when wenjuan FELL onto whis banglah. HAHAHA. PRICELESS MOMENT MAN. then, it was her 3seconds in heaven when she leaned on him. HAHA. and I regretted not whipping out my handphone to capture that precious priceless sweet moment. AWWW MAN! >:( oh yes, then there was this other guy int he bus and he was like giggling lah. LOL. then I was laughing like mad. OH YES, and I tell you, she was leaning on that guy for like seconds which seemed like ETERNITY. LOL. then after we got down the bus, I was saying that it was all FATE and blah blah then she was like hitting me like crazy. PAIN PAIN PAIN! then after we got to bukit gombak, I was still talkign about that incident and she was like gonna hit me again when her handphonedropped onto the concrete floor and the cover and battery fell out and when she picked it up, she was like 'WALAU, SO SUAY' then the handphone cover dropped again. then by that time, I WAS LAUGHING LIKE MAD. then I was like squatting down and laughing like mad. then she was laughing too and I was like '
ehh, you read your horoscope ornot? maybe today is your unlucky day, better stay indoors leh. HAHA. you better mark this day in your calender...' then we went to the stadium.. when we were almost there, we saw chiu li and edna then they said no one was in the stadium. so we jsut waited outside, then I was like ' EHH YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED JUS NOW... ? >:) ' then wenjuan was like JOLENE YOU BETTER SHUT UP! haha.. then I was like laughing again. then she took ehr raquet and try to hit me, and this time, her raquet fell out form her hands and her shoebag dropped. LOL. SUAY? YES. LOL.. OMG! this time, I was sitting on the floor laughing my ass out already and I was like going crazy. then after that, I calmed down and got a hold of myself. it was tough, but I still did it. HAHA. so today's training was GREAT. had so much fun. && NO CRAZY RUNNING HERE AND THERE. WOOHOO. YAYness man. then, during training, wenjuan hakima and ME got khaiting as our 'serve us shuttleCOCKS so we can smash it' person. and she was like complaining that we were some sort of noisy people and very DAO MEI to have us. yes yes, I know what dao mei means. (: then we were going crazy. DRIVing the shuttlecocks, smashing them like JELLY, and JAVENing here and there. HAHAHA. and threatening/jellying/screaming/talking cock/laughing CRAZILY. (: YAYness. FUN FUN FUN. (: then hakima and I were like BEST FRIEND here, BEST FRIEND there. HOHO. :D BEST FRIEND! and too bad our 'best friend' self-proclaimed HANDSOMEST of all, XINSI didn't go training. BOOS. then we just go LOONEY (: tiring too luh. then there was this SENIOR SENIOR guy who's called JIAN AN. wait, he's name's jian an right? wait. I think so luh. HOHO. yes, so he arrived in this UBER BRIGHT STRIKING yellow shirt then khaiting was BANANA-ing here and there at him. HOHO. and he's face was super duper uber red. WHY? dunno. then he had the PINK RAQUET that I wanted. ): too bad man. it was nice. as in COLOUR. but then today, I bought a 50bucks discounted racquet from SHINEY and yeah, at least it's better than my crappy old one. so YAY to my new raquet touched by SHINEY. HOHO. (: then before that, I was asking khaiting how to choose raquet and she was like.. I chose my raquet cos I liked the colour. HOHO. SMART SMART SMART. (: erm. yar. YAY. then after all the stupid drills and blah blah, we went to play.. DOUBLES. FUN FUN FUN! I teamed up with wenjuan and we played about 3-4 games. (: and won ALL. CLAP CLAP CLAP! then siewyee and I were lemon-ing and barney-ing throughout. HOHO. && MARCOPOLO-ing too! (: HAHAHAHAHAHA. miss swan rocks; like a rock. and siewyee sucks; like a duck. HAHA! :D and then yeah, after training, siewyee wenjuan anita and I went to have lunch. we 3 had chicken rice while anita had hokkien mee. HOHO. (: the TOFU was nice. as in, it was a side dish. then after that, wenjuan and anita came to my house. oh yes, something happened to anita's raquet. but OH WELL. lazy to talk about it. then after they came my house, they were going through the 2004 year book and talking/commenting/laughing and blah blah and using computer, they left my house. HAHA. then now I'm stuck in the room filled with smelly perspiration. HAHA. so yeah, that's about what happened today. HOHO. coolness (: so yeah, I guess I'm rather happy today. && I smsed ben if he was free this thursday but he didn't reply.. URGH. ): SAD SAD SAD. okayy. nvm. BTW, who SHINEY is, *inside story* HAHA. but it's rather obvious -0-

it's a sad life.

2006-11-27T00:58:00.000-11:00

and so, I'm back here blogging again. I had training today, and blah blah, the usual stuff, and my tuition got cancelled. (: YAYness. so I sneaked out the whole day with wenjuan and anita to go out, eat, cut hair and yeah. then after that, went home. I'm just so freaking fed-up with life here, after I thought about what anita said that day, about _________________________________________________. and then I suddenly remembered the past. and that, it was just so difficult to erase. and I just do not wish to look forward to next year. and then so, suddenly, everything just starts falling. then last night, my dad went crazy over the issue of FAN and blanket and it totally pissed me off and he was just being such a bitch. yes, you heard me; bitch. I was just so freaking pissed with him and I was like yelling ' DIE DIE DIE @#$%^&*' and all these things in my head. I really couldn't take it anymore. then I was so fed-up I jsut took my stuff and moved to the living room. at first, the sofas were really comfy, then, when I started to sleep, I started having nightmares, of many indian men speaking all these indian languages and I didn't understand them and they were speaking so freaking fast and I just was so terrified by it, then by that time, I was semi-conscious then I was like forcing myself to wake up. then I did, then I just tried to clear my mind then go back to sleep. this time, the voices were driving me crazy and then I opened my eyes a little bit: I was semi-conscious; then I saw this big white pillow with an evil look and it was as if making noises like 'jajajajajwajajajawajajaja' and all these things and I was really scared, and then I was fighting to open my eyes wide open, and then I did, with A LOT of difficulty. then I got up, and lie back down. then, I tried to sleep again, then as soon as I closed my eyes, this indian face came into my head. it was like any random indian construction worker. then, I just opened my eyes again and I thought of all the curse words I was harbouring in my mind and I was thinking, am I being possessed? maybe while TB JOSHUA ( the man of God) was driving out spirits in people, the evil spirits came into me and now I'm being possessed? then I began praying, asking God to forgive me for the things I harboured and cursed about my dad just about an hour ago. then I decided to go back to the room, and sleep. then I had a final prayer that I won't have anymore nightmares, then I slept. and this time, I slept through with no nightmares or anything. I had a really good sleep and didn't wake up once anymore. so you see how God can punish and forgive when you ask him to? God is good, God is merciful and God is powerful. so after this incident, it kinda bothered me for the whole of today, but well, it really got me thinking so, yeah. BTW, I'm sharing room with parents currently as our ' working for us for 2weeks maid' is having my room, so yeah. ): sad I know. so yeah, that's about it. and I'm still sad. about the 6 people, and also what the future holds, and the fact if I can tame my feelings and control them. God help me.

and it's in these times of need when I remember that GOD is here,
right beside me,
and I shall not fear.

blah blah.

2006-11-25T19:50:00.000-11:00

Think 20 people now .Do it accordingly
Intructions: Remember, odd number :GIRLS . even number :BOYS.
1.wen juan
2.benjamin
3.siew yee
4.shaun TAN
5.anita
6.john jr
7.rachel ng
8.wilson yeo
9.vera
10.derrick
11.hakimah
12.hilmi
13.pei shan
14. jeremy
15.yu han
16.justin ng
17.puay ling
18.ryan
19.yu xin
2o.umias

#1. Describe [3]'s Character :
SHE'S MY BESTEST CRAZEST SENIOR THAT I CAN CRAP, SCREAM AND TALK COCK WITH (: WOOHOO. lemon & barney 06'

#2 List from [1]-[10], this are the people you are missing right now :
1. shaun
2. HIM.
3. TWO BESTIES ; WENJUAN && ANITA
4. spongebob
5. HU 2006 FRIENDS
6. wilson yeo
7. john jr
8. siew yee
9. colin
10. peng yuan

#3. How do you meet [19] and [11] ? :
19- SHE'S MY LOONEY TOONS SENIOR! :D 11- SHE 'S ONE OF MY FAVOURITE BADMINTON SENIOR (:

#4.Who's [13]? :
SHE'S MY PRIMARY SCHOOL KHAKI (: MISS HER SOOOO MUCH. awww.

#5. Does [20] have any admirer now? :
OMG. I doubt so, such an evil person. *sigh* >:)

#6. Where does [2] stay? :
some condo near my area I think. I kinda forgot. OOPSIES =/

#7. Where is [7]now?:
I'm not too sure. I guess she's out at some mall with her family. (:

#8. What if [6] and [8] ask you for stead, who will you agree? :
HAHAHA. friends, no more than that (: HOHO. *there's more to it..*

#9. If [9] and [14] are together, how will you feel ? :
they don't even know each other, and vera not his type.; and he's not vera's type. HAHA.

#10. Describe[15]:
She likes to chop people. (: YAY.

#11; Will you give up ur friendship between #14 and #16 ?:
never. all are nice people (:

#12. What does [1] do ? :
always talking, chatting, crapping, complaining and blah blah. (: one of my besties (:

#13. When is the last time you ask [12] to do you a favour ? :
not too sure. hes always been the one listening to all my cock. that's a bIG favour done right?

#14. What school does [18] study in? :
he just completed his A levels I think. HOHO.

#15. Does [17] goes aboard during this holiday?:
malaysia I suppose. (: always go there; she.

#16. How does [5] looks like ? :
she's kinda dark skin, chio; but look like a teacher -.-

#17. [4] likes who ?:
a girl from his class, name I can't reveal. OOPS.

#18. [10] is a what kind of person ?:
he's a really nice guy, like a brother, and really good person to talk to when you're troubled, or need some advice. DERRICK ROCKS (: WOOHOO.

Ask 7 people to do this (: :
-SHAUN TAN
-WEN JUAN
-UMIAS
-YU HAN
-JUSTIN NG
-SIEW YEE
-PEI SHAN

and so I guess I was bored, so I got this from wenjuan.
I'm still fed-up with hisham.

2006-11-25T02:29:00.000-11:00

UNGLAM.
UNGLAM
WOOHOO. unglam candid shot. PSST. check out wen juan at the end of the net (: LOL

and so, the open house today was kinda like that, tiring, yet fun. wen juan and I was crapping and laming ALL THE WAY, bullshitting, being retarded, stupid and NICE. (: HOHO. we mananged to get to know some really nice friendly primary sixes (: COOLNESS :D then anita whoel day bu shuang ____ haha. super funny, whole day complain, as least her complains made sense lah. HOHO. (: O YES. siew yee's lemon came over so many times but too bad she wasn't there. then when she arrived, I told her bout him then she went crazy and screamed. then we went lemon-hunting. and. WE SAW HIM (: hoho. about like 4 times I think. then she was like ' ACT NORMAL YOU MORON. ACT NORMAL.. BLAH BLAH' then I was laughing like crazy because her face looked like she was constipated. HAHA. then siew yee and I walked around school crappin as we went around, laughing at everything, GIVING PEOPLE AWAY TO EACH OTHER and a whole lot of shit. && screaming (((((((: *BEAMS* HOHO. then we were chatting and throwing flowers around and doing all sorts of stupid thigns lah. HAHA. FUN FUN FUN (: erm,so then I adn wenjuan and anita had waffle and curry puffs for 'breakfast' then had lunch at around 3pm at westmall, then I had to rush back home for some dumb gathering -.-" TIRED. ): so yeah, that's about everything that happened. I haven't blog about the TRIP to wenjuan's house. Oh well. SIAN. && very angry and pissed with HISHAM now. all I have to say is ' get a life you idiot faggot and stop fucking you pathetic moron. I HATE YOU LUH' hmph. and I'm so fed-up now.

you said fuck.
and I followed.